[hughesis]

i know i have a bit of anxiety but lately its affecting me more. when i was little my mom told me i was bit more emotional than the other kids and here i am now 20 years old in the military and i get very anxious startled very easily, and i also get angy very easily and i tend to forget things sometimes important then sometimes cry because i get angry of the lack of control i have on my anger i dont feel comfortable going around people all that often, and when i go to sleep its late and i wake up about an hour or two before my alarm and then cant fall back asleep again and now lately about for a few months now i eat less than i should (1 maybe 2 meals) and some of my outbursts have even happened in front of my command for reasons i dont understand at the most inapropriate times and for even the supposedly smallest thing, its affecting my work and the job i have i cant be doing this. i feel very ashamed and worthless in my command. (im not suicidal) sorry this is so long i just want help

[benson123]

I'm sorry you are going through this right now. Is there a doctor where you are to talk to? Being in the military I am not sure of the options. If it is affecting your work I would say talking to a doctor or therapist would be a very important step for you. Have you tried relaxation techniques like deep breathing or journaling? I have generalized anxiety disorder and I do multiple things to get through each day. It is hard and I usually have to push myself. Some days are better than others. I also take antidepressants and go to therapy. I still cry and sometimes can't eat. It takes time. A couple weeks ago I was way worse. It comes in stages for me depending on what is going on in my life. Basically, I want you know you are not alone and try not to feel ashamed, you are struggling now but can get through this.

[MICaligirl]

I am having similar feelings. My job is very demanding and I find that I am putting a lot of constant pressure on myself to get things done as quick as possible while at work, which by the end of each day makes me feel like a zombie. Then if I have too much going on during the weekend with prior committments, family, etc I basically have meltdowns all weekend because I feel so anxious about not being rested for the rest of the week. I end up snapping at my family, have road rage, am impatient and angry at everyone and then feel ashamed at how I have treated them and want to crawl into a hole. I am quite a mess! Today I went to my therapist and she wants me to be more open during therapy and I just wanted to scream! How can I be more "open" when I don't even understand why I am feeling so out of control. Agh!

[hughesis]

Thanks and I did talk to my doc and he said he will get info on seeing a psychologist. Or a therapist but he said I should probably se a psychologist instead