[DesperateMomma]

I have GAD, and I had managed to get control over it for a good few years. Dont get me wrong, i still suffer with extreme anxiety, but it is or was no longer affecting my life when my panic attacks stopped.

I have had a lot going on recently, and have handled it extremely well. So well, I was worried that I had no emotions.

My daughter has started rebelling to the extreme, due to me taking control of a situation (in her best interest).
It resulted in her becoming abusive. Shouting, screaming, having us walk on egg shells and eventually she hit and kicked me.

I have started having panic attacks again and they are scaring me. As soon as she raises her voice - my chest gets so tight i feel i can no longer breathe. I start breathing heavily and rapidly, like a typical panic attack.

She has started using physical violence more and more now. I am sure it is because she is seeing me in a panic. She has started pushing me, I am only little so when she does I actually move quite a few steps back from the push.
I think this is giving her more power, as i really do look weak.

Because of this, my panic attacks are just occuring randomly now in the house, outside etc. Etc.
Not as bad as when she raises her voice, but still having an affect on me.

I reallydo not want to go back onto meds as ive coped for years without them. It also annoys me as if i did - it would be because of a 10 year old little girl. It is shameful, to admit that i am being bullied by my 10 year old daughter.

I think it is all happening because there is nothing i can do. I try to remove her, and she hits me. I cant hit back, as much as id like.to at times. I couldnt do that.

[kaliope]

I think you are right. you feel you have no control over the situation so you are having a panic response to it. you need to find a way to manage your daughters behavior. sending her to her room before she escalates, get her into counseling, take some parenting classes so you can learn how to manage her behavior. take care