[Skitz13]

Hello everyone
I have BP and have been starting to have trouble with anxiety that has left me housebound.

I've just come down off of a mixed episode and it's been suggested to me that I get out of the house, "it would do me good."

A friend has a teenage son that goes to an art school and really wanted me to go to see what I thought was A play of his. I thought no more than 2 hours tops. Well as it turns out it was a series of plays and was going to last 4.5 hours. If I would have known that, I wouldn't have gone. I've been isolated for a long time.

Anyhow, after being there for 2 hours I had to go. Too much stimuli. Yelling and running in the halls, loud music I started to get anxious and I felt like I was outside of my body. Weird feeling. She couldn't drive me home so I was going to take the subway.

While on the platform, I started getting these images over and over again in my head about jumping but really, I wasn't suicidal. The next thing I know, I'm slumped in a corner with some guy talking to me saying he was going to call for help. I got scared and got out of there. I've been hospitalized before and swore I would never be again.

This out of body feeling lasted a few hours and I took, well more medication than I should have but I needed to just pass out.

I've never ever experienced this ever. Was it a severe anxiety attack? Do you know?

I was alone and sooo frightened, I'm back in and don't plan on going back out.

Can anyone help?

[Little Lulu]

It sure sounds like anxiety - which can cause irrational thinking, out-of-body feelings, among many other odd sensations.

Too bad the play wasn't shorter - it sounds like you could have done the two hours. When you've not done something for a while, going back at it gradually stands a better chance of being successful.

You did the best you could and it really was good given the circumstances - kudos to you.