[Steiner of Thule]

Hmph.

I've always been told in the past that I should perhaps get some therapy. I've tried it before yes. Though that was a year ago and nothing came from it. I think my parent's are going to be pushing me into therapy again soon. Mainly because I am showing more nonverbal symptoms of some mental illness. Such as covering the window in my room so that no light gets in and sleeping all day.

Though I know I will eventually end up in some therapy session. I am sort of afraid of taking any drugs. My last therapist kept begging me to take drugs. Saying the therapy was worthless unless I was on some form of medication. I even tried a session of group therapy. Though I just felt like the worst one in the room and overall feel shameful because I stopped going. The most anxiety is the fact they are probably talking about me behind my back. Thinking about me. "That one weirdo."

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I am not sure if anything will work. Everyone seems to always recommend therapy therapy therapy. Always the same answer every time.

Though I guess would it be too weird to have to go to a therapist and instead of using my vocal chords that I instead write down what I want to say. Since it's easier done that way.

Would that be too weird. Would they accept that? That I would have to write down what I say on a notepad like some mute. Which I basically was growing up. Guess I may as well still consider myself a mute. Since most of what I try to say comes out as non-intelligible gibberish.

I already know the answer "Yeah that's fine. Your therapist should be willing to work with you."

Just want to see other's thoughts I guess.

[glok]

Hello, SteinerofThule. Your post reminds me of this:

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by glok

Hello, SteinerofThule. Your post reminds me of this:

What about it reminds you of that lols.

Sort of made me chuckle when he says "and this! this is a fram oil filter!"

I think I can hear it though. The first line. aha

[Birds of a Feather]

I think it is definitely worth a shot.

A good therapist should be able and willing to work with the fact you are not yet comfortable enough to use your (verbal) words, and I think a good therapist will help you get from the point of writing things down on paper to verbalizing what you want to say, AND get you to the point where you feel like what you DO verbalize is not "non-intelligible gibberish", but is meaningful and purposeful, as it really is.

I am not yet in therapy (getting myself to that point), but often feel like it would be so much easier to express my feelings/thoughts in writing (as I do mostly now... just happens to be the way it is), as when I am very anxious, my mind often goes blank and I can't think of "intelligent" way to put things (I just think they are not "intelligent"... but in reality, they are probably fine).

I good suggestion (for both of us!) might be to write topics/information down that we want to tell our therapists and bring those notes to our sessions, so that we will have our feelings/thoughts "in hand".

I, personally, probably wouldn't go this route, but have read on these forums that others have.... what about an online therapist or communicating via email?

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by Birds of a Feather

I think it is definitely worth a shot.

A good therapist should be able and willing to work with the fact you are not yet comfortable enough to use your (verbal) words, and I think a good therapist will help you get from the point of writing things down on paper to verbalizing what you want to say, AND get you to the point where you feel like what you DO verbalize is not "non-intelligible gibberish", but is meaningful and purposeful, as it really is.

I am not yet in therapy (getting myself to that point), but often feel like it would be so much easier to express my feelings/thoughts in writing (as I do mostly now... just happens to be the way it is), as when I am very anxious, my mind often goes blank and I can't think of "intelligent" way to put things (I just think they are not "intelligent"... but in reality, they are probably fine).

I good suggestion (for both of us!) might be to write topics/information down that we want to tell our therapists and bring those notes to our sessions, so that we will have our feelings/thoughts "in hand".

I, personally, probably wouldn't go this route, but have read on these forums that others have.... what about an online therapist or communicating via email?

Thanks yeah I like the idea of writing everything down. Even though it would probably be uh anxiety inducing. I can just feel the anxiety now lol.