[emmyk]

II found notes from when I was seven and was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder. My doctor told me it was triggered by a traumatic emotional event. Apparently that was when my bipolar grandpa, who used to call my brothers names and spray windex in our eyes, who I loved very much, snapped, said we were dead to him, and left forever. He was later diagnosed with terminal cancer.

Here it is complete with 7 year old spelling errors.


Dear grandpa,
You really broke my heart when you left like that. Ever since then I've been worieing. It turned out to be G.A.D. and that means genral axatie disordor. That makes me worie alot. I can still picture that day when you drove away.
Your loving or non loving you can make the disision ps. Please send me a letter back (if you love me anymore) Emily



Before
You: I love you too. Me : I love you grandpa
Midle,
You- I'm never coming back
Me- I'll miss you
Mom -I can't believe you're doing this!

After-
My nice counselor - you have g.a.d
Mom - it's OK honey
Me- mommy I have a worie.

It's sad but kind of funny at the same time. Just thought I'd share.

[atomicc]

This is very sad, but also very sweet to be able to look back on.
Mommy I have a worie is probably my favorite line..I think I still say this!

[BLUEDOVE]

Your notes are SO beautiful and loving,you are a
fine human being.