[aroseb2014]

I'm a hypochondriac. Bad. I've never had anxiety until I had my daughter a year ago. I've made myself believe I had MS, multiple heart attacks, breast cancer, and now my new dilemma is.... I have an indent on the top of my mouth. It don't hurt. It isn't red. It's just there. God only knows how long it's been there, but now my anxiety is going crazy.

I hate the doctors cause I feel like they just look at me like I'm nuts. But then I'm scared to not go because what if it is something?

[Blue_Bird]

Have you considered seeing a therapist? They can help you learn ways to cope with your anxiety

[Disorder7]

I also have the same problems as you. I've believed I had MS, brain tumors, multiple heart attacks, strokes, liver cancer, pancreatic cancer....you name it. Of course, all of the medical tests come back normal.

I think it's just part of having an anxiety disorder. As you start taking care of the disorder, the fear of illness subsides somewhat.

[aroseb2014]

I used to see a therapist for different reasons. But for insurance reasons I haven't been back.

I drive myself crazy. I've also put on 20 lbs since my daughter from comfort eating and drinking beer. I hate the fact that I find myself needing help. I know I need help. Talking to people helps a great deal, but doctors scare me . My boyfriend don't understand. Our relationship is falling apart, and I don't want that.

[SecondSkin]

I completely understand. One of my rules for myself is NOT to look up medical conditions online. It can just be endless, and ultimately fruitless. Anxiety makes you think the worst first. For me, it takes over any rational thought and replaces it with completely disastrous things.
I'm not a therapist, but it sounds like you're terrified of leaving your daughter behind. Somehow you think that it's only a matter of time before something bad will happen to you. Just a guess.
I don't want to belittle your thought about an indent on the roof of your mouth, but that's totally normal. Some people's are more pronounced than others.
And don't feel like getting help means you're weak in any way. You're not. I hope you can find a good support system if you feel you're not ready for therapy.
Another thought, it takes a couple of years for hormones to get back in balance after having a child. That can bring on anxiety, and all the "fun" that comes with it.