[lucami]

having panic attack right now. racing heart, feeling like something is trying to crush my head and pain in arms, especially in right, in inside elbow.. I feel like i'm dying... need a hug....

(((((((((lucami))))))))

I logged on today because I, too, am experiencing the very same.

Let's breathe together....

[lucami]

thanks sophiesmom.. in this vid there's something like bells sound or it's just my mind?...

Yes. Windchimes maybe? I'm telling myself that there's all sorts of subliminal stuff in there.. :-/

[lucami]

strange, valerian and listening to this meditation calmed me down now.. that's good but now thoughts about being hypnotized by this kind of meditation came to my mind.. my stupid barbie friend made me fear stuff like this, the same with yoga.. stupid, isn't it? but still, stuck in mind eh :c

What do you fear?

[lucami]

Originally Posted by sophiesmom

Yes. Windchimes maybe? I'm telling myself that there's all sorts of subliminal stuff in there.. :-/

yeah maybe something like that... but it always bothers me, i fear that i may be hearing something what other's don't and it would be totally crazy;/

Originally Posted by sophiesmom

What do you fear?

heh would be easier to say what I don't fear.. right now i have fear of dying, passing out, being hypnotized, possessed, being crazy...

Well, I have been hypnotized, and it's not like people think it is. It's simply a state of relaxation.

And I might be crazy too, but at least we're the safe kind of crazy...

Panic attacks are indeed, attacks. Stealth mode. You can't foresee them, so you have to learn ways to deal.

I never got the hang of meditation, but I'm happy to look at some waves and listen to something soothing for a few minutes.

This one is nice, too

There is no talking and it's very calming.

[lucami]

I know but i fear that I could not wake up from this state :/

or like a mental phoenix, dying mentally of anxiety, an reborn to die again and so on

yup and this makes me feel like i won't get better, because even when everything is ok, panic can strike again :c

haha for me meditation probably works, but waves make me feel a need to go to the bathroom

yeah nice sounds, is this psychedelic pic moving? it remembers me when I was a kid and had kaleidoscope

music from games and movies can be soothing too

[prepsychmel]

Sending hugs!

[lucami]

awrr since this attack today I had about 2-3 'waves', like wave of giant anxiety in my body for minute or so, I fear that full blown attack can come anytime too :s

I'm so sorry.

It would be nice to be protected (or even get a heads up) from this. I don't know about you, but I have no triggers that I can detect. It just happens.

I am more than an adult and I am not ashamed to admit that I have a favorite blanket. My aunt knitted it and she's gone now.
Anyway, when I feel like this, I wrap myself up as best as I can in it.

[Disorder7]

Lucami, are you seeing a pdoc or counselor for your anxiety? I hang out in the bipolar forum a lot, so I don't know.

I'm not trying to make this worse for you, but panic attacks can signify another mental problem. Panic attacks typically "travel" with another condition. But not all of the time. Sometimes panic is just....panic.
Take care.

[lucami]

sophiesmom yeah.. I sometimes have triggers, I have strong agoraphobia besides anxiety so going outside can trigger panic, and ocd, so some topics can trigger this too, like sometimes I'm freaking out when somebody talks about devils etc... but sometimes panic comes for no reason :c
I have fav blanket too! that was so nice of your aunt, it's always a piece of memory after her... mine blanket is nothing special, but when I can't hug someone I like to hide under it..

Disorder7 yeah, I've been to psychiatrist lately, I told him I worry it may be schizoaffective or psychosis, but he said naah it's just anxiety turned on all the time and depression.. but idk, I had episodes like believing for a few sec in something, but he said few sec doesn't count, for schizo this episodes would be longer and I wouldn't be so scared after them.. idk maybe my panic attacks comes from living in stress, my stupid family made me feel like useless trash, 90% of the day I'm spending in my room, have anemia, probably overactive thyroid too, and lately I'm worried all the time because my dog's old injury came back and he was half paralyzed, now he can walk bit by bit, but vet says if he will run it can happen again so I have to keep an eye on him.. maybe all of this things destroyed my mind, or maybe it's something other mental as you say, I just don't know .__. living like this is so pointless ._.

[lucami]

btw to earlier meditation talk, today i saw this article Can Meditation be Dangerous? | Mindfulness and Psychotherapy and wonder, topic says 'Can Meditation be Dangerous?' but there's nothing about if it's dangerous or not, only what meditation is about, or am I blind?

I read that also.

In my opinion, the title was simply an attention-grabbing tactic.

I found nothing in the article to support the title. In fact it wasn't even interesting....

[lucami]

yup it's just some gibberish...

[IrisBloom]

I'm sorry you are suffering.
Here's a good article on panic attacks and what you can do to deal with them. I had bad panic attacks when I was younger and when I learned what was going on it made them easier to deal with. I still have one now and then, but knowing it will pass soon is comforting.

Panic Attacks and Panic Disorder: Symptoms, Causes, and Treatment

I hope you feel better soon.

[lucami]

thanks IrisBloom I used to be better, panic attacks used to be lighter.. and about month or two somatic attacks came back, big fear all the time.. and it's probably because of thyroid thanks for the link, i check it

[Turtlesoup]

Sorry you're having such a rough time lucami-as a long time survivor (my newest way of thinking of myself) of anxiety & panic attacks I know how scary & helpless one can feel. I've done meditation for many years & for me it is a tool & coping skill-some days it works & others not so much. I have a big mental toolbox of things I use for my various issues & am reaching out more to family, friends, this forum, my tdoc & pdoc-it's very scary for me to share what's going on with me since it feels like keeping it inside is a way of controlling it-that has not worked very well for me & I'm hoping sharing what's going on with me & actively listening to others & their issues & struggles is a positive way for us to all help each other. Take care & remember you are not alone.

[lucami]

thanks Turtlesoup I've tried to keep everything inside but this didn't work too, too much things kept, always exploded.. so now I'm sharing how I feel, probably I'm annoying with this to others, but I don't know what to do... like now, always when I felt dizzy etc I told myself 'it's only anxiety, only anxiety', but now, when other doc said seems like I have underactive thyroid, I can't calm myself, I'm so worried that I'm dying... today I woke up about 5 am with racing heart, then felt asleep again.. and woke up too late again for blood tests... since I got up from a bed I feel like pressure is crushing my skull, very weak, but at the same time like my body would weight like elephant... and bit dizzy, strange pain in my forearms.. damn I'm so scared again I need hug again, don't know what to do :c