[venom0706]

For the last 2 years, I have constantly created phobias, related to disorder in basically everything in my life. For example, I constantly check whether everything is on its place in my room and even if the smallest thing is changed, I immediately have to return it back to its place. I like everything to be always arranged.

This also happens when I make plans for the future. I always have to calculate everything and every single day some panic thought occurs in my head, for example whether I will have enough money for the following month, or will something get messed up at work and I will get fired, etc.

I just always find something to worry about and there hasn't been more than 2-3 days without me panicking about something.

The truth is that my life is great and I have everything I have wished for, it's just that I always find something to worry about. This started to happen 2 years ago, when I started living on my own in another country. Can you tell me what the problem might be? I would appreciate it much. Thank you.

[Blue_Bird]

Hi venom0706, some of what you describe sounds like OCD. I'm not a doctor but it may be helpful to go and get an evaluation

[Bipolartist]

I don't have a lot of advice, but I have the same issues. But it's been much longer than 2 years for me. Everything in my life is good, but as my therapist says it's as if I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop (for everything to collapse around me).

One thing I'm learning is to just keep reminding myself to live in the moment and look around and to be grateful for all I have and try really hard to enjoy it.