Lately i have been feeling almost constant anxiety and it's quite overbearing. Today I don't feel too bad, but I have seen two doctors and I don't know if I'm sick or not, they say no right now, but I feel they may have missed something, particularly the first doctor I saw.

Anyway, I often think of suicide to calm myself down, it's somewhat reassuring to think that I have a clean exit plan.

Does anyone else do this?

[Robinson16v]

Hi.
I do this everyday without fail. Although this is the first time I've shared this. I've been to the doctors before but feel to ashamed to go again. This is how I'm surviving lately.
I know I need help but I'm to afraid and ashamed to do anything about it.

[SoupDragon]

Hi Illegaltoilet,

Yes I do, it feels like my safety net

Keep safe - Soup

[elevatedsoul]

i dont do this, i dont have suicidal tendencies or voices

i tend to day dream and imagine myself rich and doing well, i guess i go prettty much the opposite way

it makes me feel better

im sorry you're having so much trouble, never give up

[Fuzzybear]

Yes I do .. The constant anxiety and the "net"

I don't really think of it as a safety net, but my anxiety is bad enough right now, that I'd rather be dead. It feels so close to completely destroying my life and when that happens, there will be no reason for me to live.

[Fiona Alianor]

Yes, I do this as well. It gives me a sense of control, to think I can leave whenever I want.

[CosmicRose]

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

Lately i have been feeling almost constant anxiety and it's quite overbearing. Today I don't feel too bad, but I have seen two doctors and I don't know if I'm sick or not, they say no right now, but I feel they may have missed something, particularly the first doctor I saw.

Anyway, I often think of suicide to calm myself down, it's somewhat reassuring to think that I have a clean exit plan.

Does anyone else do this?

I have a good friend who made a deal with himself that if his life ever got unbearably bad, he would commit suicide. I would not commit suicide but it does ease my fears and my worries for some reason just by thinking about it - I think its just because it gives us a sense of control. I'm sure many people think about death and the reason why it calms us down is because it puts everything into perspective - what's important, and what's not.
Pretty sure this is kind of common. Some people don't think about death because it gives them a panic attack, others think about death to get over their panic attacks.

[_solipsist_]

I have honestly lost all hope for a future this past week. I can't do this.

[mountain human]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

i dont do this, i dont have suicidal tendencies or voices

i tend to day dream and imagine myself rich and doing well, i guess i go prettty much the opposite way

it makes me feel better

im sorry you're having so much trouble, never give up

This is my coping mechanism too, fantasizing about a perfect world with a perfect me...

[Turtlesoup]

I too have went through many (way too many) episodes where I have thought about it as a viable option as my end game for many situations-I can certainly relate to the whole "safety net" thinking. I have found so much support here-please be safe all