[AngstyLady]

I truly thought I was beyon this- I have been off medication for some time now- I've been fine at work- I've even been going on job interviews and doing (seemingly) fine. But apparently when it comes to things I'm passionate about I lose my ****. I've been meaning to go t opoetry readings for a while now- I meant to start getting into it more over a year ago but got sidetracked and temporarily forgot when I met my bf- so anyway I've been feeling inspired as of late and having been compiling some of my writing and found a free open mic poetry reading place to check out last night- I invited a friend last minute (one of my only few close friends here who is moving away in less than a month ).
She couldn't come so I was determined to go by myself.
I didn't have any pressure on me- I wasn't going to sign up to read a piece, just check things out and become familiar/comfortable. On my way there I started to feel apprehension. I was super shy and awkward at the door but somehow played it off- I got myself a drink- it helped for a moment- i/ briefly chatted with a girl sitting next to me- but then i became a stiff rod- allfreaked out on the inside- I had another drink- I was a little sleepy0 I don't drink like I used to- I had a root beer- maybe things would be different if I could walk around a bit- perhaps the alcohol was a mistake. after the end of things I went to the bathroom- I came out and everyone was talking amongst themselves and I felt out of place- I just left- I felt so much better as soon as I did. I usually am good when meeting new people/strangers- but I was straight up scared! I hate feeling like that- I know it's an irrational emotion, but I could'nt get over it. Ugh! I guess I really need to get back on taking my vitamin B supplements- I keep forgetting to get more- I want to get the additive free all natural stuff anyway . . ...

[gayleggg]

I'm sure if you just keep going and get to know some people your anxiety will lessen. It's hard making the first attempt to go past our comfort zones. Keep pushing. I'm sure it will get easier.

[Armadillo Roll]

Hey don't fluster! I know that you can overcome this. Sometimes meeting new people can be intimidating especially if it's not in your comfort zone but don't give up and keep trucking on! :