[ladisputelover]

So I'm gonna post this in both schizoaffective, anxiety, and psychosis because I don't know....
My pdoc thinks I might have schizoaffective disorder because in her words, I don't "look like I'm psychotic". Or whatever that means ahah. I don't know if that's a relief or not but I'd really like an official diagnosis just to know what the hell is wrong with me. :/
My hallucinations continually get worse every day but my pdoc just thinks they're anxiety/trauma- based even though they started before my trauma???? Whatever. I just wanna know what's wrong with me....
She upped my dose of Zoloft and Geodon so I guess that should help, hopefully. She also mentioned partial hospital which I kinda do kinda don't want I don't know.
Instead, I'm changing from individual therapy every other week to now once a week so that should do something. So I'll have individual every week plus three groups each week and a fourth group every other week.
Hopefully I'll feel better in a couple of months but I'm not really holding my breath.
I'm just so sick of everything, especially life. Ugh. Oh, and now I'm officially diagnosed with PTSD, WHICH I ALREADY KNEW I HAD FOR YEARS LOL.
And tomorrow is the anniversary of my best friend's death so yay. I'm having so much fun. *notice the sarcasm* :rollseyes:

Hope all is well for everyone.

Most people with Schizoaffective, Schizophrenia, or bipolar 1 dont look psychotic. Psychosis is a mental state, not a personal attribute.It's kinda of weird that your doc would say that. Are you currently on an antipsychotic? If you are is it helping? If it isnt, you may wanted to ask your doc to consider different ones.

Hope the best for you.

[Turtlesoup]

Sorry you're going through such a rough time-I think it's good that you are increasing your therapy visits-please let us know how you are doing

[BAZOOCA123]

I had to be hospitalized for about 2 weeks and then I had to go to the partial program, it wasn't so bad, about 7 other people who sat in a room for several hours discussing coping methods, there was mediation time, aroma therapy and general information about mental illness. Was pretty nice. Now the complete hospitalization was different, I didn't care for it.

[ladisputelover]

Originally Posted by BAZOOCA123

I had to be hospitalized for about 2 weeks and then I had to go to the partial program, it wasn't so bad, about 7 other people who sat in a room for several hours discussing coping methods, there was mediation time, aroma therapy and general information about mental illness. Was pretty nice. Now the complete hospitalization was different, I didn't care for it.

Honestly, I would be open to partial hospitalization but if I have to do it I would wanna wait until next month because I'm going out of town on the 23rd and there's NO way I'm rescheduling it; I'm actually really excited for it for once so yeah.