[The Madcap]

I have major anxiety. At school when I walk in the hallways I feel like people are watching me and snickering. I feel like they say things behind my back. I feel like a mess. I'm always anxious, jealous of people, angry. Sometimes I feel happy, but other times I hate very one. I'm the quiet kid. The weird kid in my school. It's hard to socialize sometimes. I don't know if any of this is normal. I should be happy. I have a gorgeous girlfriend..but my step dad and I don't get along. I have anger issues as well. I keep asking him to get a councilor for me, and he says he will, but never does. The only time he ever really talks to me is for a punishment or lecturing me. I feel pissed that I envy my
Own girlfriend, but I do. I'm trying to get passed that. But everyone likes her and my parents ask me why I can't be more like her. She has friends and I don't.

Possible trigger:

Sometimes I think about killing myself in front of everyone at school. But then I feel ashamed. I don't want to leave my girlfriend. I can't imagine what would happen. But I always have a sick fantasy of this and everyone remembering me. I know. I'm sick. I probably will never kill myself, but I always think about it.

[Ruftin]

((((Madcap)))) You need to report the idea to your dad, or your girlfriend or your school counselor. Somebody with skin on them needs to hear you. It is very serious and needs to be addressed ASAP. You've mentioned it twice here, and I'm very concerned for you.

Get Dad's attention, but not in a way that is harmful to yourself, please. I was weird in school, and not because I was a weirdo, but because I was sick. Please keep posting.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi TheMadCap

Thank you for introducing yourself to us.

Welcome to Psych Central.

This is a great place to be for online support.

"Is this Normal? Do I need anxiety meds? Do I have a disorder?"

"Normal"?

What is this word?

Who wrote the definition?

Is this a measure that we use to assess whether we are like other people?

I'm not like anyone.

I am unique.

I can't be compared to others.

I am certainly not abnormal.

I am just different in some ways to other people.

Actually, I am quite different.

I like being different.

I don't do stereotypes.

It doesn't allow freedom.

You seem to suffer from a high degree of anxiety.

Is this normal?

I don't know?

What is normal?

It seems to me there are a lot of people who suffer from anxiety.

Have a look at this Forum - it's great:

Anxiety, Panic and Phobias - Forums at Psych Central

There are 54 000 posts under Anxiety.

So if so many others experience this too is this normal?

Who said we are abnormal not to feel anxious.

But here's my personal opinion on this.

If we have barriers that prevent us from feeling a sense of stability and wellbeing; and interfere with our day to day functioning; this should be investigated.

I have GAD.

I don't want to continually feel like this is going to impact on my day to day functioning.

So I look at strategies and work with my psychologist in order to mitage highly anxious responses to every day situations.

And then I implement these strategies.

I have a few of them.

As for medication?

I will put my personal opinon on this one aside for the time being.

However, I would recommend that as this is something that does seem to be hindering your day to day functioning; please discuss this as an option with your doctor.

As far as your inter personal relationship are going at the moment -

Feel free to browse around this forum it's great:

Relationships & Communication - Forums at Psych Central

If you are grappling with emotional reactions to situations, as I frequently do, check out this Forum - it's awesome:

Coping with Emotions - Forums at Psych Central

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[kaliope]

hi the madcap
welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome.