[damage_case1987]

I suffer from Haphephobia. I hate touching people or getting touched by. I stay away from society and havent met any of my family since 15-16 years. I live in isolation. Will I die alone?

I cant imagine anyone loving me or touching me. I have never experienced love or any form of physical intimacy. Im 27 and I think I need to come to terms with living alone and sad.
If someone looks at me (coz im good looking) I just hyperventilate. I have such self hatred that even in my dreams I cant imagine or dont dare to imagine someone might like me.

BTW no one has ever approached me for friendship anyways so that doesnt help my self hatred.

[jf1987]

Wow, I can't imagine the pain you are feeling! I'm sorry I don't have any great advice to offer you, but I want to tell you that no one deserves to feel or live with those feelings, that includes you! Have you tried speaking to anyone about it? I'm sure your family would love to have you back in their lives if that is something you want. I'm pretty new to this site myself but the support is pretty amazing. I hope someone can give you the advice you are seeking. Good luck!