[Gpcarson32]

Having a terrible summer. I slowly eased into these symptoms, and after last night I just couldn't take it anymore. I had to share.

I woke up after an hour of sleep having weird feelings like I'm losing control and going crazy. Feel very weird, dreamlike, and scared, and couldn't stop thinking about it until I finally fell asleep.

Woke up today and immediately thought about these feelings. Scared about what/why it is happening and constantly thinking about it. Thinking about it so much that I feel like I will never return to a normal state of living, like this will always be dragging on my mind.

When I finally think about something that I should look forward to and it usually would excite me, the thoughts immediately pop back into my head and a negative, dreadful feeling comes over me.

For a year and 5 months I was on effexor 75mg for similar feelings but was able to stop, and felt perfectly normal for my entire senior year of college. These weird symptoms started when I came home for summer in May, and have been going on for 2 months. I try to battle it by doing normal daily activities like working, socializing, working out, trying to find other hobbies, but these thoughts are running through my head the entire time.

I don't want to start my meds again because I was literally feeling perfectly normal two months ago at school. But if I have to, I will. It's just so frustrating! I was going out with friends, living it up, and just feeling happy. I was able to fight off any of these feelings because I was surrounded by friends 24/7. Now it seems like I'm losing control and nothing will be normal again.

Please tell me why this is happening and what I should I do!

[pegasus]

Hi, it sounds like there is some sort of trigger with you being at home as you stated this has been going on since you've been home again. Having distractions and keeping busy can help but ultimately you need to figure out what it is that has set this anxiety off big time. You may need to go back on medication but don't look on that as a failure, we all need help from time to time. Therapy can help also, go see your doctor.

[WntMyLfeBck]

I agree, I would go talk to your doctor and discuss what's going on.

I was in the same situation. Was Effexor for a few years and finally got myself off them. Went a full year with nothing feeling great like I defeated it. One day it just decided to show back up and it was terrible. As if you aren't in control anymore. The thoughts just flood your mind. Now back on meds, still not feeling 100% but take it day by day. Just started practicing meditation. a lot of people here recommend it.