[Solipsist]

I'm alone at home. It's Saturday night. I am suddenly overwhelmed by everything around me and I'm seriously considering taking everything out into the backyard and burning it.

Everything just feels like it's weighing so heavily on me right now I can hardly move. I stayed in bed almost the entire day today. There's no one I can think of I can call. I still have to work tomorrow and all I can think is how much I want to not look at people right now. Yet the irony is that I feel overwhelmingly lonely tonight.

I'm thinking about how badly I want to drink.
Or cut myself.
I haven't done either in a very long time, and I don't want to start tonight.

I'm going to go for a run.
I'll message again when I get back.

[spring2014]

hi solpist,
yes go for a run . don't think about being overwhelmed .what I learned from my therapist is that being overwhelmed is considered high anxiety. here is my list that I follow when I have high anxiety or I feel overwhelmed
For High Anxiety
1) physical activity
2) deep breathing
3) mindfulness box
4) guided imagery
5) progressive muscle relaxation exercises
6) diversions
7) counteracting thoughts
a. think positive
8) relaxation exercises
9) journaling
10) mindfulness
11) STOP technique





dx : Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 60 mgs at night
Vistaril 25 mgs 2 x a day for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia

[Solipsist]

Originally Posted by spring2014

3) mindfulness box

What's a mindfulness box?

I just got back about an hour ago. Ran about 3 miles.
Cut my hair (nothing too drastic, just a trim). Had a really long, warm shower.

Thinking about baking muffins before bed since I still feel slightly frazzled.

I'm not sure if I feel "better" per se, but I am definitely more tired physically, so maybe that doesn't matter since oblivion will hopefully be happening as soon as I lay down in my bed.

[francisR]

hi Solipsist

I'm sorry that you are not feeling good. But burning everything might be an action you would regret later as you would probably lose valuable stuff.

Going for a run is an excellent idea as that would burn up the feelings of anxiety.

Considering the things that are weighing heavily on you. Perhaps listing them would be a good idea and then coming up with solutions to deal with them. Also, allocating sufficient time, even over a number of days for processing them would make you feel less overwhelmed.
Don't worry about having to work this is something you have managed quite well in the past and will again. You could consider getting medication for anxiety and depression and seeing a CBT therapist to get good skills for dealing with it. Googling a therapist in your area will bring one up. When you feel very anxious distracting your mind by thinking of something else is helpful. And generally keeping your mind occupied so that your attention is drawn away from feeling bad does make things much more bearable.
Many congratulations for staying off the drink for so long and not harming yourself. That was very well done indeed! And you really don't want to break that. I really hope and pray everything gets much better for you today. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[AnxietyMaster]

Originally Posted by Solipsist

What's a mindfulness box?

I just got back about an hour ago. Ran about 3 miles.
Cut my hair (nothing too drastic, just a trim). Had a really long, warm shower.

Thinking about baking muffins before bed since I still feel slightly frazzled.

I'm not sure if I feel "better" per se, but I am definitely more tired physically, so maybe that doesn't matter since oblivion will hopefully be happening as soon as I lay down in my bed.

You know, when I feel stressed or like a lot depends on me I clean. Cleaning becomes my life's purpose. For some reason, it releases a lot of stress (not irrational anxiety) for me. I also think this is because clutter is a big issue for me... It drives me crazy when things are out of place. Cleaning does not have to be physically doing something though. I have organized folders and binders... I have made schedules. I have made those calls you've been dreading. Also, when I am stressed sometimes I will drink coffee just to stay awake to clean...

This doesn't work for everyone though... Drinking isn't the solution. Neither is

Possible trigger:

self injury

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