[gaudjim]

A year or 2 ago I had an episode of paranoia that has since kept me a little nervous and I'm looking for feedback.

The episode lasted maybe a month or 2 where I was convinced my grandmother and sister were trying to poison my food. It started with my grandmother joking with my sister saying something like "Hey [sisters name], if I decide to hire a hitman on Jim will you go in halfway on the bill." Probably not an accurate quote but it's very similar. It also dawned on me that my grandmother was obsessed with the murder mystery shows, I figured she watched them to learn how to murder me. I became extremely paranoid the next day. For a month or 2 I became aggressive and suspicious of my grandmother, and I would often throw out any food she had prepared and would sometimes yell at her. One day, a month or so later I woke up and the paranoia was gone. I felt terrible for how I treated her and immediately apologised. The paranoia ended so suddenly, from being intense the day before, to being paranoia free and regretful.

One of the reasons this concerns me is that my mother is schizophrenic, and I display many negative symptoms of schizophrenia including depression, social withdrawal, and anxiety. I just need a little feedback or advice.

I have a therapy session tomorrow, should I bring it up?

[francisR]

hi Gaudjim

I'm glad that you recovered from the paranoia. One way of dealing with this is a kind of reality check. Doing this you will realize that your grandmother and sister really love you so would not want to poison you. Keeping reminding yourself of this. when the thought comes up will help. If it really does concern you bringing it up at the therapy session would be best. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis