[Nimitri]

Hi, My name is Nimitri and I had suffered anxiety attacks since three years ago.

This year I had finally let go of my medication and started to deal with my fears and doom thoughts by myself and since this half year was my last semester in college, it was not easy.

So what happened now?

You see, during this August I recibed, I don't even remeber how I found the opportunity but I think it was Isurvey, a opening to do an spam search of black hats by Isoftstone to work online to qualificate pages that abuse web searching engines.

First you needed to take a trial and while I read the manual and did the training, I didn't understand a thing and got 1.24 of .50 in my results. Honestly, with having my graduation ceremony coming in two weeks I say "screw it" and let it go, saying things "I'm going to give me a few more days to study and take the second training" and so on until yesterday when It hitted me: 8 dollars and hour is 135 pesos, they need it for 10 to 25 hours weekly, I could win over 13,000 right now. What have I done?

So I looked frantically for the e-mails for an hour and I found them and while battling to get to the same page, I found that it was for a long term work of 6 months, but that it was a window (I don't understand it very well) between yesterday to the third and I don't know if a threw away a good opportunity or it was a scam or I never had a chance.

I was bad. I mean really bad, which was the reason I left it, but I could have studied more and try it again and maybe I would have a paying job right now. Telling this to my mom, she simply told me that there must have been thousands of others who also tried it and how are you getting paid? Card? Check? And I never found out now that I think about it and so on, pocking holes to my anxiety but this morning I woke up stressed again and regretting not putting all, that success only occurs once and it need of so much luck and what if this was my chance to be better, to create the path to a better life? Sure, insane but that doesn't stop the recrimination, the weight on my back and the sudden desire to cry like a baby.

And apparently my brother, whom studied communications and told me he could tell me about it, its slightly exasperated because I keep looking at him to tell me but he only has time until before 2pm and I simply can't stop thinking about it.

Does anybody knows, who had some job and let it go, lost it or an opportunity that they have regretted missing out, tell me how they deal with it? I'm so green about working that I'm honestly blank about how to respond.

Thank you.

You see, during this August I recibed, I don't even remeber how I found the opportunity but I think it was Isurvey, a opening to do an spam search of black hats by Isoftstone to work online to qualificate pages that abuse web searching engines.

First you needed to take a trial and while I read the manual and did the training, I didn't understand a thing and got 1.24 of .50 in my results. Honestly, with having my graduation ceremony coming in two weeks I say "screw it" and let it go, saying things "I'm going to give me a few more days to study and take the second training" and so on until yesterday when It hitted me: 8 dollars and hour is 135 pesos, they need it for 10 to 25 hours weekly, I could win over 13,000 right now. What have I done?

So I looked frantically for the e-mails for an hour and I found them and while battling to get to the same page, I found that it was for a long term work of 6 months, but that it was a window (I don't understand it very well) between yesterday to the third and I don't know if a threw away a good opportunity or it was a scam or I never had a chance.

I was bad. I mean really bad, which was the reason I left it besides me, but I could have studied more and try it again and maybe I would have a paying job right now. Telling this to my mom, she simply told me that there must have been thousands of others who also tried it and how are you getting paid? and so on, pocking holes to my anxiety but this morning I woke up stressed again and regretting not putting all, that succes only occurs once and it need of so much luck and what if this was my chance to be better, to create the path to a better life? Sure, insane but that doesn't stop the recrimination, the weight on my back and the sudden desire to cry like a baby.

And apparently my brother, whom studied communications and told me he could tell me about it, its slightly exasperated because I keep looking at him to tell me but he only has time until before 2pm and I simply can't stop thinking about it.

Does anybody knows, who had some job and let it go, lost it or an opportunity that they have regretted missing out, tell me how they dealed with it? I'm so green about working that I'm honestly blank about how to deal with it.

Thank you.