[Nike007]

Hello. I haven't posted something for quite some time. I have been okay with it. I'm now super anxious about school. Currently, I have having a lot of issues. Like, I try really hard, do everything I can do, and even study at times, but I'm doing the worse I've ever done in school and I'm freaking out. I have a 75 in math when I'm considered gifted in math but I'm doing terrible for me. 75 does sound bad, but the marks are broken down differently. Knowledge is 40% of my total mark, which is high and I have an 85 in that. Application is 10%, and I have an 88 in that. Sounds good, right? Well, communication is 10% and I have a 44% in it. Thinking is 10% and I have a 53% in it. This is what I'm have difficulty with. I have a strict math teacher too. Last semester, near the end of one of my courses, I was getting 60s in everything. I am so anxious about it because I do a lot but feel like I'm doing nothing.

I am having difficulty with procrastination at times. My first project for one of my classes and didn't finish on time. The redo date is tomorrow. It'll be done, but I have no desire to do work. I don't know why either. Like I want to do good without trying because that's how I did things for the first 12 years of school. School was easy and now I'm crashing and I feel out of control and I'm freaking out. Another quiz I got back a few days ago I got a 68 on. I do study, I have the notes to prove it. I just want things to go like they did before. Getting close to perfect without trying. I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I'm so confused. School is bringing my anxiety level up, and thinking of it causes an intense headache pain like right now. I'm getting all my testing done for all mental issues and LDs, but I feel like a failure because I'm not doing good. My report cards show good marks, but have dropped 5-10 percent from last year. I really need help. I have an IEP this year too, and it's been my worst school year ever. Does anyone have advice? I'm also not seeing my pdoc frequently anymore, I see a social worker once a month, and I see a child and youth worker weekly, but haven't seen her in two weeks because she's sick. What do I do? I am freaking out, as you can tell.

Another issue is all I want to work on is learning about my interest and nothing else. But my interest isn't in any subject I'm taking.

Another anxiety thought is I need a low 90 mark to get to the school I want for university, and it feels impossible now because I'm doing so bad and can't get my mind together. I do all my homework but still fail. Help from anyone?

Social anxiety disorder, GAD, OCD, and panic attacks

Lexapro, 10 mg

[Allerson1105]

When I'm procrastinating a lot --- I make lists.
It helps me to see how much work I have to do, and then I'm inspired to start doing SOMETHING!
It also helps me to prioritize.