[Ghost5]

Not so much the therapy but what the Psycholgist and psychiatrist think of me. I have a bad social anxiety(as well as other major mental health dx) and I feel recently things are getting out of control. I know rationally and logically they don't think anything bad of me and they have even told me this but I can't stop the constant thoughts going round and round my head, I'm waking up at night in cold sweats with the panic at another session coming up. My psychologist has said that I need to keep attending every week and that's the only way to get over it. I'm not even sure what I'm anxious about but I'm getting extremely agitated and my thoughts are racing in general. Help!

[Lost_in_the_woods]

I think this fear is completely normal and your T is right. It takes time to build up trust. When you think about it in a broad social aspect, therapy is an extremely weird concept. It walk into a strangers office and discuss your private issues... not to mention that even over time does not develop into a traditional relationship; meaning in almost all other situations where you would be telling someone your most personal thoughts generally you would know a great deal about them as well. Not in therapy. Generally speaking even over years you will know little to nothing about their personal life. Best to think of it in a clinical sense. If you had a physical ailment that you found personally embarrassing but was causing you suffering, would you shy away from seeing a physcian b/c of fearing judgement? On another note.. sometimes this fear does have to do with the perticular therapist. For example, myself, i could never get comfortable seeing a T of the opposite sex and never will, so i dont. Also for a long time i had a T that I could figure out why i would have stuff basically bursting outta my mind that i needed to talk about but as soon as i sat down in her office, id end up spending my time talking about iitrelevan bs... and would walk away feeling no better and wirse cuz i would beat myself up mentally about it.. well long story short.... after about a yr i realised my issue was because this T and i were close in age, my natural social sheild to act put together and like everything was great, just wouldnt come down. I found a T that was much older than me and found myself very much at ease discussing most things. Idk if any of that helps...i hope so remember to be kind and gentle with yourself and go at your own pace. Therapy is not a sprint, it is a cross continent run.

[handheart]

Well you have a bad pattern anxity in your subconstinet mind and makes you to feel uncomfortable and afraid of psichoterapists because dont want to heal you .So dont let it to defeat you confront the fears and you will succed