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Disclosure: I won't discount how great my life has been in the past year. I've never been happier but something happened tonight made me question my feelings about a breakup that happened 2 1/2 years ago.

Alright. When I ran across a photo of my ex-boyfriend and his new beau, it brought back feelings of anxiety and a stream of thoughts related to self-esteem, comparison and how much time it took to get over him. It took me a year and half to get over everything especially since I was so obsessed and convinced that he hated me. It made me think that if I still get anxiety over one measly photo of them or him, am I digging up unresolved feelings? I don't want to go down that horrible path again.

I've gone on dates, had a few casual dating experiences and realized my worth in the time I spent building up my life, taking care of my emotional health (started Prozac last August) and finding what I love. That one photo just crushed everything I worked so hard to build. What is happening to me? I can't un-see it either and that's what I dislike most about me. I care about him still. Of course. He is happy and well and I see it. Am I jealous? What do I do?

Help? I'm having trouble falling asleep now because I can't erase what I saw or how I feel.

How is your insomnia now? I hope you are sleeping regularly.

I think you need to get rid of all pics, momentos, correspondence, etc, of your ex. It's doing you harm and you need to fully let go - for you. You deserve that.

If you are still having a hard time with it all then I think seeing a therapist will help you a lot.

Closing doors opens new ones! Take care.

I'm sorry this happened to you. My anxiety is bad right mow but mine are irrational health fears so it is a little different but both cause insomnia.

I usually just watch TV or listen to music..anything to distract me. Sometimes it helps sometimes not.

Feel better soon.