[pacots]

What a worse time to feel like I do, have been having multiple anxiety attacks. Had a really bad one yesterday that just left me drained today. I do not know the reason for this but I feel like I am having a major breakdown. I know it is Christmas but I think I need to go for the help I need. My therapist wants me to go to a crisis bed for 10 days which means I miss Christmas with my hubby. Talked with him about this we are not getting any company or really doing anything, he said he would rather see me get the help I need. Cannot however help from feeling guilty.

[Misssy2]

Can you delay until after Christmas only because I can see the fact that this is happening over Christmas is making your anxiety worse.

I have been having the same type of breakdown for almost 2 months (not to minimize yours)..but...I have to hold on for my Dr. and try to get in this week. I BELONG in a hospital..but I am holding off due to the holiday and people stopping by.

Granted..I may explode on someone at Christmas...I already have had a big blow out with my mother who told me not to contact her till I'm medicated. I'm fine with that!

I think if you held out a few more days..you would get more out of your experience at the hospital.

Sounds like he wishes to be supportive. If your mental health caregiver feels you should take a break, and your husband encourages you to seek the help, I think you ought to do so.

[Unrigged64072835]

If you need to go, then go.

Why can't people bring a little Christmas to you?

[BLUEDOVE]

The guilt may be from looking after dear self,which you may
have been taught NOT to do (cause you're not worth it) when a
child. If that be the case,this will be breakthrough for you.
You DESERVE,
BLUEDOVE

Have you made a decision?

I think you need an advance plan for the hospital stay I encourage you to have. Turn to friends and family and prearrange visits to the hospital. Ask to have a group come at some point over the Holiday - ie. Christmas morning.

There is no need to be alone. Reach out.