[CepheidVariable]

Been having a little trouble hitting submit on some posts. So, I thought, why not post about that?

Oh, where to begin. I'm having another one of *those* days. So I'm just gonna spew. And it's audience participation time. Or not. But hey, why not discuss the most obvious anxiety for an anxiety forum?

Yes, I know all about insecurities and cognitive distortions and what's wrong with (most of) these statements. I'm going to throw my compulsive worry hamsters out there anyways.

* I don't really know what I'm doing and I'll upset the person (biggest one by far, and most reasonable)

* I don't really know what I'm doing and I'll sound like an idiot or a jerk

* I'll sound like the emotional child that I am

* I'm way too old to be such a child (wait, that's not anxiety, I'm going off topic *again*)

* This post is small potatoes compared to others, but if I post it in general chat the mods will have to move it here anyways

* I'll go on far too long with irrelevant and meandering drivel

* Everyone else posts much better stuff and support. I should just shut up.

* I'll sound pompous or patronizing

* I'll sound irreverent or flippant

* Oh good, another "me too" post

* It's obvious I'm trying too hard

* I'm not trying hard enough

* "My name's Blurryface and I care what you think"

* I'm projecting all my own issues on to another person's post and I'm cluelessly off base

* What the heck is a socially anxious, avoidant basketcase doing trying to be active in forums anyways?

* Gee, I tried to be upbeat and positive in another thread just now, so I must look insincere or like I've got 2 minute mood swings

* If it's taking me an hour to compose a response, and fretting over it six-ways-to-Sunday, I should just hit cancel

* What does it say about me if my thanks-to-thanked ratio is really high or really low? Seriously? Really? I'm actually going to even think about that? Get a grip.

* Neurotic much?

* When I was told I have a sense of humor, it was because I was told I have a terrible sense of humor

* Darn it! I said anxieties, not stream-of-consciousness nonsense! Focus!

* What's the point? (okay, that's the depression not the anxiety)

... I think you get the idea. Feel free to add your own.


Why yes officer, I *am* out in public without my self-esteem. I can't seem to find it.

(And just to make it easier on anyone wondering how to respond ...
yeah I've been moody and upset again today, and yes I'm still sort of sarcastically joking about it anyways ...
so you can kid around and/or commiserate ...
or cry ...
or eat onion rings ...
or ...
I dunno ...
Pfft, I'm going to go post another ferret picture in the Pets forum because -- the heck with it all)

[*Laurie*]

Your post is courageous - and amusing! Welcome to posting on PC

[Sunflower123]

I enjoyed your post. You should post more often. You sound articulate, intelligent and funny. Everyone could use more input like that. Sending big hugs.

[CepheidVariable]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I enjoyed your post. You should post more often. You sound articulate, intelligent and funny. Everyone could use more input like that. Sending big hugs.

Thanks. To both you and Laurie.

I see you tirelessly responding to people on so many forums every day with kind and supportive posts that always seem to simply get right to the heart of the matter. I do admire that.

Take care. (back at ya )

[TishaBuv]

You are cute, funny, and excessively thoughtful... post away!

I was apprehensive about posting on here at first, but 4000+ posts later....

[bharani1008]

People say that you have a sense of humor because you have a sense of humor. I really enjoyed and identified with your post and admire your courage in exposing yourself like that.

I worry because I can''t think of anything to say

[CepheidVariable]

Originally Posted by bharani1008

People say that you have a sense of humor because you have a sense of humor. I really enjoyed and identified with your post and admire your courage in exposing yourself like that.

Thanks. Of course I don't believe those thoughts are really true or at least all that bad. It's just the anxiety and low self esteem playing head games. I know how silly and overwrought it all is, but they sometimes won't be quiet. That's why I called them "worry hamsters". Thoughts that won't stop uselessly running in little wheels.

I was in several different kinds of moods that day and thought I'd air the little twerps out.

Also, I too find it nice when I see other people post stuff I can identify with. It's feels good to know you're not the only one. Or better still, to occasionally feel more light-hearted or maybe even be able to laugh at a shared experience. So there's the hope that someone reading it might get a little lift.

If not -- well -- they'll probably just shrug and think "Oh that's just Cepheid going on again like he does."

Originally Posted by bharani1008

I worry because I can''t think of anything to say

I thought you did quite nicely just there.

[Fuzzybear]

I'll sit with you and maybe eat some onion rings. It's obvious you're already a great addition to pc. I appreciate your humour and insight

I rarely post in the anxiety forum.. I'm "too anxious" - thanks for honest sharing