[confusedondid]

This must be a very crazy thing as I have searched for hours and can not find anybody or anything talking about understanding.
I do have PTSD (yes, I am working with a therapist) experience several different elements of anxiety (from physical panic attack to emotional attacks). Sometimes I am just fine and seem to function almost normally, but then there are times when things are bad in just one area (like I will have the ball in my throat feeling or jitters) sometimes it is just emotional (like all of a sudden I am panicked or want to cry and have no reason that I know for it) and sometimes it's a combination of things.
What I am asking about today is even strange by my standards and it is something I have noticed mildly and occasionally for a long time, but seems to be happening a little more often lately. I seem to sometimes have a reaction to my own touch. It doesn't have to be my hands, it can even be my feet touching each other in bed or touching my other leg. Sometimes I will be trying to go to sleep and feel the anxiety building and realize it is because I am laying on my hand and my hand is touching my stomach. I try to ignore it and go to sleep because it is completely rediculous and crazy but I often have to change position so nothing is touching before it will settle down. I have even noticed that there are times when I have to try to keep my fingers apart and have pushed blanket between my fingers so they don't touch each other.
Is this a condition that is known or just a very strange aspect of my anxiety and does anybody have any idea why it would be happening? I am trying to not get built up about it and have tried to ignore it for a very long time, but the longer it goes on the stranger it gets and I would like an idea of if there is a reason it is happening.

[Shazerac]

I get sort of physically fidgety like that sometimes. It's probably anxiety. are you on any medications at the moment. Anything to help,you sleep?

[confusedondid]

I do have meds for panic attacks, but this is very different. I have had anxiety for as far back in my life as I can remember, but the strangeness of this is beyond anything I can understand and I can't find where it is mentioned ANYWHERE on the internet. I feel like I am the only person in the world that this happens to.

I am not sure if I explained it well in my first post since you mentioned being fidgety. This isn't anything like that. It is a feeling that my can not let two parts of my body touch each other - skin on skin. Like my hands laying again my leg, or my feet next to each other, or one foot against my other leg in bed, even to the point that sometimes anxiety builds if my fingers are even touching each other. If I put a blanket or the sheets or something between them so that it is not skin on skin, then the sensation goes away and everything is ok again. I soooooooooooo don't understand this but it is getting more frequent and stronger, so I am getting more worried about it.

[IrisBloom]

I do understand because I had this issue before. I never consciously thought about it, but noticed one day that it doesn't bother me now, but used to. IMO it is like any other thing we can become OCD about. You may benefit from counseling, or try reading up on OCD. I do believe it is related to depression/anxiety and stress.

I hope you find relief soon.

[confusedondid]

oh thank you... As far as I can find, you and I may be the only people on the planet with this strange symptom. I do have a T and have therapy regularly and I did mention it to him. He thought it might be related to emotional memory from past trauma, but it has just gotten so bothersome that I wanted to do a little research and see if I could find any information about it.

I have PTSD, anxiety and depression.. but OCD is NOT something I have had to deal with before, yet I know a great deal about it from working with others that have had it. Maybe it is, but if so it is a new thing for me.

Thanks for responding to let me know this is familiar to you as I was seriously beginning to think I was the only one out there.

Thanks

[Sunflower123]

Good luck resolving this condition.