[Welp 36]

Okay, so I really want therapy. I have the means to get therapy. However, just the thought of it makes me want to cry, scream, and panic. Any suggestions?

[Skeezyks]

Hello Welp: I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

I don't know as there is a lot I can offer with regard to your particular concern. Perhaps this is one of those things where you just have to dive in? Here are links to some articles from PsychCentral's archives that may be of some interest:

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/overc...start-therapy/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...rting-therapy/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/your-fi...erapy-session/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/therapi...st-of-therapy/

Family therapist, Kati Morton, has some videos on her YouTube channel with regard to first therapy appointments. Here are links to 3 of them:

I don't know, of course, if you're here simply seeking advice with regard to this particular concern or if you plan to hang in here with us. However, should you be planning to continue on... may I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!

Don't go to the wrong therapist ... follow the advice here to know which one ... otherwise it's the police and suicide

[Keyplayer]

Hi Welp 36 ,

All that Skeezyks suggested was great , so follow that.

I will also add that after being so depressed last June following that 12th & 2nd years passing of my parents , I just did not care , I was never suicidal , I just lost interest in anything. So I sought out help after watching a few Kati Morton videos , and after a free consultation I was refereed to someone I could afford , and I have been in therapy since the 2nd week of Aug.

So here is the honest truth:

Your therapist is there to help you , but you must want that help.
There are times when you will feel you must say something in order to feel better , and after end up feeling either better or worse , it is ok , that is how therapy works.

The most important thing to remember is tell your therapist everything , every gory detail , the more your therapist knows the more effective your therapy will be. Holding something back is not a good idea , I have tried out of fear , but have found that once I found the courage to say what I needed to say , I was ok , even better that ok.

There will be times when you tell your T something and it will get you thinking , sometimes thinking is scary and sometimes it hurts. But at your next app. tell you T what you felt the day after you got something off your mind. Your T is there to sort out the mess , not make things worst.

At times you will laugh while other times you might be sad , but in the end you will be whole and go on to do great things with your new life.

I guess that really sums it up , your new life.

Whatever is bothering you now , once you work through it , you will find yourself breathing a whole lot easier , I promise.

It`s work , real work , you will be asked to keep a journal , your T will never ask to see it , it is for you , if you want to show it , it fine. I have kept a journal since the end of June , before I started therapy , my therapist has never asked to view it.

But my therapist had seen a ton of my writings , I think my T has far more home work from me than other clients , but that is fine , sometimes your words can speak for you .

If there is something you find hard to say , just write it down and hand it to your T , a few week ago my T got a 3 page part of my life I could not say aloud , it a work in progress.

Anyway , I hope I have helped

Take care ,

Keyplayer 

[Fuzzybear]