[xmascarol]

First of all how is everyone doing.I woke up feeling so anxious so I took three of my meds.I feel somewhat better now.Please dont be afraid if anyone needs to talk I am here for you.I love helping people.I had this really nice thought Well about 40 years ago we use to have a cottage for the last two weeks in August,I can remember my dad and I use to be up before 6 then we would go fishing,and later during the day go swimming,well I thought of that today and I loved it.I have has these thoughts numerous time.I can just see myself walking along the beach really early in the morning the water would be like glass it was so beautiful ,I love watching the sunset and sunrise especially when it is over the ocean.These kinds of thoughts makes me very happy I wish I could go back to when I was 13 all over again.However anxieties prevent me from going anyewhere since I also have agoraphobia.I can almost smell the ocean air.I use to love to take walks with my friends on the railroad tracks ,We would be so close to the train when it went by we actually were able to wave to the people on the train.I loved that cottage .We had so many good times down there.I would love to hear your happy moments in life.Sometimes thinking of something that I really enjoyed helps with my anxieties.So if you ever feel anxious try to think of something that makes you happy and smile.Believe me when I tell you this visual therapy sometimes does help with anxieties and depression too.

[Hobbit House]

Hello, I’m having a good day.my meds are working for me and I see my therapist in a couple hours and my psy doc later this week. Sorry about the anxiety...

[WishfulThinker66]

New job is about to start. Yeah, I am pretty anxious.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Hobbit House

Hello, I’m having a good day.my meds are working for me and I see my therapist in a couple hours and my psy doc later this week. Sorry about the anxiety...

You know I was on Depakote and it made me extremely sick I had to go off of it after telling the doctor to take me off of it a million times I finally walked into his office and told him I am not taking it anymore so he put me back on ,trileptol.I have had a hard time getting meds that I need,the doctors around where I live aren't to bright

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by WishfulThinker66

New job is about to start. Yeah, I am pretty anxious.

I would be very anxious too.

Originally Posted by WishfulThinker66

New job is about to start. Yeah, I am pretty anxious.

Good luck with your new job.

[Hobbit House]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

You know I was on Depakote and it made me extremely sick I had to go off of it after telling the doctor to take me off of it a million times I finally walked into his office and told him I am not taking it anymore so he put me back on ,trileptol.I have had a hard time getting meds that I need,the doctors around where I live aren't to bright

Sorry to hear that about you and the Depakote, it works with me with the Viibrid and the Abilify. My wife is on it too, but only on 500 mg.

I know what you mean about the Dr’s. The ones around here aren’t too great,but I lucked out and got a good one. I’ve been with him now for six years.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Hobbit House

Sorry to hear that about you and the Depakote, it works with me with the Viibrid and the Abilify. My wife is on it too, but only on 500 mg.

I know what you mean about the Dr’s. The ones around here aren’t too great,but I lucked out and got a good one. I’ve been with him now for six years.

I was on it when I was about 35 Depakote didnt work for me then so I don't know why they put it back on it again and they knew it wasn't working and get this one,they took blood test just to see if it was working wanna take a guess on what they did,he told me to take an extra one,I asked him why do you keep telling me to take it when u know it doesn't work?His responds was I need more of it.I was so mad that is why the next time I went there I told him I refuse to take it,it made me very anxious and I got chemical taste ,finally he had no choice to take me off it then.See I also have a mood disorder and sometimes I yell believe me I have gotten into trouble here from yelling .I try to tell them it is part of my anxieties.I had a server fall about 8 years ago ,a head injury and my doctor tells me that could be why I yell to.I get so nervous and anxious and when that happens I yell not all the time just sometimes.I hope the Depakote continues to work well for you.I have heard a lot of people have had problems with that medication.I have what they call seizures mood seizures …

[avlady]

I am also on Depacote but i love it. i was having seizures and i havn't had one in almost 8 years. im sorry it didn't work for you. it makes me feel very relaxed but then again im on several other meds too. one of them is xanex which i just started about 2 months ago. well good luck and i hope you can find the right med you need!

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by avlady

I am also on Depacote but i love it. i was having seizures and i havn't had one in almost 8 years. im sorry it didn't work for you. it makes me feel very relaxed but then again im on several other meds too. one of them is xanex which i just started about 2 months ago. well good luck and i hope you can find the right med you need!

I know a couple of people who said the Depakote was not working for them either and it made them miserable,i know you cant just get off of it because you go get very bad seizures and of course the withdrawal.Thank you good luck to you too.

it could be better, it could be worse.

wish it was a little better though- would make things easier

[Mountaindewed]

I’m having a decent day. My stress relief soap has helped today.

[xmascarol]

I am so down right now today I got a letter in the mail it was about my mothers will ugh I got so depressed I cried.She passed on June 9th this year ,i miss her so much since we talked to each other everyday,she abused me verbally all of my life but you know what I still loved her.I talk to her everyday I am just having a hard time coping with her death.Sometimes there was physical abuse too.Even through all of that she said she loved me I am just glad I was able to tell her I love you mom before she died,guess what two weeks before her passing she wouldnt talk to me but she didnt want to talk to anyone.

[ken9018]

hello, I was a little anxious earlier about my stomach hurting, but doing a lot better now.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

it could be better, it could be worse.

wish it was a little better though- would make things easier

I would love to know what it feels like to normal no anxieties ,depression,wouldnt that be great if they could find something that would work so we didnt have them anymore.Nobody would have to live with this mental illness pain.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m wondering if I’m getting sick. I’ve been sneezing all day today and I’ve been really tired these last couple days. The last 4 times my anxiety has been really high I’ve ended up getting legit sick all 4 times. I don’t know though. But I’m doing well after the Ativan I took this morning.

[Camellium]

I feel so jealous I'm afraid I'll never be happy or like normal again