[xmascarol]

Well my kids came over tonight to open there gifts actually it was my grandchildren ,I felt like an outcast in my own home.My son and his wife have this thing where they talk among themselves in the kitchen they talk so low like they dont want me to hear what they are saying I find that to be rude.I feel very uncomfortable around my daughter in law.it seemed like every time the kids opened there gifts she would say oh no,what the heck is that suppose to mean.Anyway I love my grandchildren very much but sometimes she can be rude and uncaring she did give me a hug and a kiss when she left.I would never do that stand with someone and talk so low you cant hear what they are saying It made me depressed and I felt worthless.I just laid down on my couch watching the kids opening there gifts.I felt like I did something wrong.I was about ready to cry.When they left I was relieved some,but now I am scared and lonely and feeling very anxious,they left me with such a mess.I have a hard time walking,sometimes I find it hard just to bend over.I dont know why I am so scared.I feel like someone is out to get me.Which is causing me to feel anxious.I am nervous because my heat isnt running but it is about 59 out so that could be why,but last year my furnace broke down three different times,even when it was in the teens oh the land lord had it fixed but I had to argue with her over and over again I had no heat she said I did,when your furnace isnt running you dont have heat,so now I am scared that maybe happening again however I know it will run when it is ready,I am so spooked right now I have this feeling like someone is standing behind me with a weapon and is going to strike me with it.I am going to crawl underneath my covers I am so scared I am in tears.I dont know why,yes I do I fear that I maybe attacked

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you've been feeling so scared. Yes I would certainly agree that whispering in the kitchen is rude. Perhaps your son & his wife are experiencing some marital discord? Anyway... it's been a couple of days since you posted this. Hopefully you're feeling at least a bit better. I know that, as I've gotten older, fears of various kinds as well as paranoia, have become things I tend to experience as well. They're not pleasant.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

I'm sorry you've been feeling so scared. Yes I would certainly agree that whispering in the kitchen is rude. Perhaps your son & his wife are experiencing some marital discord? Anyway... it's been a couple of days since you posted this. Hopefully you're feeling at least a bit better. I know that, as I've gotten older, fears of various kinds as well as paranoia, have become things I tend to experience as well. They're not pleasant.

A couple of years ago my son left his wife but he went back for the kids sake no she is just rude and acts like she is better then you,I don t see what my son ever saw in her.They do the thing in the kitchen all of the time my mom always told me they did it in her house to it is just plan rude I was so upset and when I made her daughter who is 6 she wanted a home made afghan well I had some yarn left over and made her a pair of slippers her remark was oh some slippers to match your afghan that is silly no that is just a rude remark I don t see anything silly about it do you?
I do feel somewhat better not as scared sometimes it feels like someone is standing behind me and if I dont turn around they will stab me,my shrink did tell me that is part of anxieties ya but it is scary,right now I am checking my back.You seem like such a nice person cause whenever I read your posts you always have a kind word.