update on woman making me anxious

I posted a while back about a woman making me anxious.

well, she's been on holiday for the past week, and to be honest, it's been bliss.

tomorrow she's back and I'm litirally shaking

their's no garantee I'm going to see her tomorrow, just the thought of her nearby makes me really anxious and scared- because I keep thinking that she's planning to abuse me (either when she sees me next, or a few months down the line)

I can't tell her I don't want to see her because.. I'm weak. their, I said it. I'm not strong enough to tell her I don't want anything to do with her.

I told someone today that I wish she never came back (which is a really bad thing to say), but in this case I meant it

how can one woman make me so anxious