[LittleEarthquakes]

I have experienced intense fear since a very young age. I have always been a highly sensitive person and grew up with a very anxious mother and my dad had abandoned us. That's just the back story. But I don't know how to cope, meditation doesn't work, deep breaths doesn't work, my meds have stopped working, therapy doesn't work, yes i can call my psychiatrist but i want to hear from others who are experiencing similar things, i am terrified of death, and terrified of life. i can't leave my apartment. i feel so small. i feel like an outsider. i feel like an island all on my own. i am dependent on my husband for buying me food and for doing errands for me. I AM JUST SO AFRAID AND I'm SO TIRED OF THIS. Please help me, anything, please don't ignore this.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by LittleEarthquakes

I have experienced intense fear since a very young age. I have always been a highly sensitive person and grew up with a very anxious mother and my dad had abandoned us. That's just the back story. But I don't know how to cope, meditation doesn't work, deep breaths doesn't work, my meds have stopped working, therapy doesn't work, yes i can call my psychiatrist but i want to hear from others who are experiencing similar things, i am terrified of death, and terrified of life. i can't leave my apartment. i feel so small. i feel like an outsider. i feel like an island all on my own. i am dependent on my husband for buying me food and for doing errands for me. I AM JUST SO AFRAID AND I'm SO TIRED OF THIS. Please help me, anything, please don't ignore this.

Boy I feel the exact same way.Deep breathing has never helped me but you can try this if you want sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesnt.IT is called visual therapy.Try to think of something that makes you happy then try to lay down and relax if you can.For instance for me I see myself walking along the beach,swimming and fishing.It helps sometimes .I love the ocean.When my husband was alive he did everything for me.Now I have to do everything myself and believe me it isnt easy.There are times when I actually break down and cry because I cannot take it anymore.Me to death scares me.I wake up with so much fear every single day from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.My hot water heater drives me nuts.I have to put my headphones on other wise I develop a panic attack,The humming really gets to me ,It use to be really bad so much so I would kick and cry.I cannot shut it off not allowed to here in elderly house,I am scared all the time and I am so tired of it too.If you need to talk you can always talk to me.

[LittleEarthquakes]

Can I please get some more replies?

[hope2010]

Originally Posted by LittleEarthquakes

I have experienced intense fear since a very young age. I have always been a highly sensitive person and grew up with a very anxious mother and my dad had abandoned us. That's just the back story. But I don't know how to cope, meditation doesn't work, deep breaths doesn't work, my meds have stopped working, therapy doesn't work, yes i can call my psychiatrist but i want to hear from others who are experiencing similar things, i am terrified of death, and terrified of life. i can't leave my apartment. i feel so small. i feel like an outsider. i feel like an island all on my own. i am dependent on my husband for buying me food and for doing errands for me. I AM JUST SO AFRAID AND I'm SO TIRED OF THIS. Please help me, anything, please don't ignore this.

I can relay to what you are going through. Because I have something very similar, we know already how bad it can be.
I have an excellent psychiatrist and a good therapy but years and years pass and there is just not a cure for what I have. Chronic anxiety, agoraphobia, bipolar and depression.

What I do is follow my treatment to the point that if I feel weird or out of control anxious I don't hesitate in a call for help. Can be my psychiatrist, or a friend that already know how to cope with me in the state of mind. Of course my husband too. The point I am trying to make is that it is important to know that we are not alone in this situation. This difficult life we are living it is not an isolated thing, we are here and not alone, we can support each other.

Keep writing to us, please. I am here for you and if you feel like talking in private I will be more than glad to be your friend. Hugs