[darkfeary]

I cannot go on in this life. My mind is destroyed completely and there is no help. I am terrified of everything and aging illness dying and I have thoughts of killing myself bc this fear is too much.

[Yaowen]

Dear darkfeary,

I am so terribly, terribly sorry you are suffering. How utterly heartbreaking. Just heartbreaking! I wish I knew what to say to help ease the pain you experience or give you a happy life, but sadly I am at a loss. Please call a crisis hotline if you are having self-destructive thoughts. Or go to a hospital emergency department. No one here would want to see anything bad happen to you. I think you are very heroic to be enduring the terrible burdens that are pressing down upon you from every side. I feel bad that I don't know what to say that would help you. Hopefully others here will have better words for you than my poor words.

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[WishIgotHelp]

I have had so many fears. I think my fears started becoming chronic when I started doubting myself if weather I could beat my classromm bully in a fight. He was fighting everyone in my class, and I was in line. We stood up many times to fight, but we didn't throw anything at each other. He knew I was strong so he was hesitant...I was getting ready to fight him everyday, because I knew it was coming. I knew i could beat him and he was sensing that too..
He fought most of my best friend and beat them relatively easily. My bully even fought with a professor and beated hm quite badly.
So, a few doubts were creeping in my mind. What if he beats me up? can i handle the humiliation?
My hands started feeling a bit paralyzed and I was hoping that no violence comes up. Luckily or Sadly, nothing happend and i moved in high school, without having to fight our class bully.

My fears were repprsed only to show up later in uglier ways .