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What to do? 48 and get the most horrible thoughts and feelings about aging, illness, dying.
It is so horrible that I imagine myself as 50,55,60,65,70,75,80,85,90,95,100 and it terrifies me and I feel transported to those ages and feel the extreme sadness and terror I will feel being old and dying also. I am also worried at the same time whether I will be able to make it past 50 even! I loathe myself now already and I despise my body so I can imagine how I will feel older when I am even worse with wrinkles and fat and ugly skin and sagging all over. I already have those things and it is already saddening me. These thoughts and images are intrusive and I cannot even sleep or nap because I get suffocated by them. There is just no solution for this condition. Such excruciatingly painful fears. No way to make peace with and accept the inevitable even if I try to. I would end me if I had the courage. I see no other option. |
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I had these thoughts when I was 29, and I thought I'd die at 30. I lived. I'm now 47. I still struggle with similar thoughts as you. I have to fight them with positive affirmations, a safety list, cognitive behavioral therapy, internal family systems therapy, and many other things for my many diagnoses.
Do you have a T you can speak with about this? Also, you can call your national crisis line. Are you in the U.S. or a different country? |
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