I cannot do this anymore

HEEELLPPP HEEELLLPPPPP HEEELLLPPPPP!!!!! I cannot do this anymore! I cannot live being suffocated by my fears of aging illness dying. Too much impending doom that I am going crazy! It is too unbearable feeling like I will die any second every second!!!!!!!! There is just no solution none my entire life is ruined. I just expect the worst every second of every day. I am absolutely terrified and paralyzed with intense dread. It is just getting worse and not even the top professionals can help me. I tried everything! I just cannot make peace with aging illness and dying ever I just cannot accept it. Trembling expecting it all the time. I cannot even do the littlest things anymore because I am too terrified and bracing for death every second. I feel completely hopeless and alone. I have nothing and no one. I feel disgusting and suffocated. I try extremely hard all the time but this is so damn relentless. So evil. Inpatient at the psych ward is a complete waste and useless. Makes me feel worse. Nothing left for me to try. Even hard to breathe. Too helpless and neverending torture and suffering. Nothing ever calms me down even meds do not help!!! No one should live like this. Impossible life. Too terrified of every single thing.

I'm sorry to hear this. I feel very much the same way. I don't have any advice or suggestions because, after all, I'm going through it myself. People have offered suggestions for me, but they haven't been helpful.

It seems these days are very tense and scary. When it feels that way, it would seem that nothing can ever go right. For me personally it has not been a good year. I've had all kinds of setbacks and disappointments; one after another. There hasn't been much going on for me lately lifting my spirits. So much has been going on "out there" and personally for me that brings me down, and causing some anxiety.

Best to you!

I'm going to be straightforward and hope I don't "get in trouble" for posting this. I believe you need an antipsychotic. The right one. The one that works.

I agree but I tried mostly all and they do not help at all. I was on lithium recently for several months and it did nothing.
Latuda - made me extremely restless, anxious, and manic
Zyprexa - no effect
Seroquel - no effect and made me gain more weight and groggy
Risperidal - no effect
Geodon - no effect

I have also tried Abilify which helped somewhat but my doctor made me stop because of my weight gain, cholesterol, pre-diabetes, and other concerns.

There are some that Are similar to Abilify like brexpiprazole.....

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Tried Rexulti too but no effect.