[darkfeary]

My fear of aging and dying is relentlessly excruciatingly terrorizingly dreadfully torturous. Thee is absolutely no way to overcome this. I know it for sure. I am completely debilitated. And the more days go by the worse I feel. I feel so suffocated constantly. I cannot accept the inevitable of aging and dying no matter what I try and even if I want to! No way to make peace with this. I can feel the terror I will feel when I am dying. I cannot handle knowing that. I wish professionals could help me but nothing they can do for me either. I wish I knew of an easy way to end my life. I just feel hopeless and helpless. I never want to experience the dying process and that absolute terror. I don’t want to age. I don’t want any illness. I am the worst loser. No hope. I am doomed. Nothing works whatsoever.

[MyOnlyColor]

We are all terrified up death love. Feel some comfort that you're not alone. We all must go. None of us can stay. What makes it easier is a puzzle in itself is that we usually watch those older than us who we love go first. That loneliness and pain makes death a little easier so I'm told.

When I watched my mom lose her father I witnessed alot of her die. What came back after was not entirely her. I know if I were in her shoes I'd be okay with death. I have no choice