I can't cope with noise. It makes me angry and extremely anxious

I live in small purely apartment area of my town. There is literally nothing here but buildings with apartments. That is why I moved here 12 years ago, because it's quiet. Apart from neighbors sometimes having works in their apartments which I thought was the worst thing now I know it's not. It's actually the smallest problem, because works are usually during the day, and the noise is pretty consistent and although not pleasant at all I am getting a bit used to it.
Problem is, during whole winter, from December 1st to April, every single day, whole day, sometimes up to midnight or after 1am, there are explosions of firecrackers in this area. It started last year, and it was hell for me. I have a problem with noise, it makes me horribly anxious, scared, and often very angry, agitated, I can't cope with it. While I found ways to cope with works in other apartments of my building, and with children screaming from nearby playground (that was the least triggering to me), I can't just can't cope with firecrackers neither fireworks, but firecrackers are the worst. I feel so bad every time I hear that horrible explosion like my mind is on fire, I get unreasonable angry, agitated, anxious, and it takes time for me to calm down.
I always reacted badly to noise, that's not new. But firecrackers are the worst. It's very loud, sudden explosion and it creates giant stress every time for me.
But here, it won't stop. Day and night, there is no break, whole winter like I am in hell. I can't move now, it's not an option because my apartment is in cheapest area in town so I can't get anything for it, just much smaller and less quality apartment and I moved here for silence! I don't know why this horrible trend started and who does it, I called police because once I was literally hysterically crying because it was Christmas, I was alone because my mom died, and I was depressed, and they wouldn't stop! Police said like yes, that is against the law but they can do anything about it. And they didn't.
Today, it was heavily raining so I thought who will in right mind toss those things in rain? They did. Whole freaking day. While I write this it's almost midnight, and there are still explosions outside. It's like a worst mind torture, there is no silence ever, no peace, just random explosions, all day, all night every day. I don't understand how no one else is bothered by this. After each explosion I can hear barking of all scared dogs in area, probably babies crying too. Why people do this? Why they let them do this to all of us? Why are there evil people who do such thing like torturing the whole area with constant random explosions and no one can do anything about it?
Mind you, everyone is crying that Europe is in crisis, everything is now expensive blah blah but there is money for so many firecrackers??? I counted hundreds just today!
I don't know if I am going crazy and I am the only one who can hear them but I did hear few persons on the street complaining about same thing. But it's like I react much worse than them to this. I mean I had noisy works outside my window whole summer and it wasn't even close triggering to me. I was annoyed because it was noisy but it was just "normal" noise, constant, boring, and it had time when it stopped. This is like hell that never ends.
Please, if anyone can tell me how to overcome this horrible feeling of hysteria, fear and anger I feel every time I hear explosion, it's like aggression towards my brain. I can't help but to feel super stressed all the time even when there is a short silence I am in anticipation of another explosion.
I can't do anything about it, obviously, police doesn't care, other people live with that and don't care anymore, dogs are scared like me, cats too, but it's like "normal"????? I just want it to stop.
Or any advice how can I help myself.
I think maybe this could be partially a PTSD as my country was under bombs 22 years ago, but I was always extremely triggered by loud sudden noise. Like someone pops balloons suddenly beside you and won't stop.
Help me, how can I deal with this?

Gosh, how awful. Real sorry the police aren't doing anything to stop the firecrackers @Biba_yu🙏

Have you tried those little foam ear plugs? They're soft. You squeeze them, put them into your ears and then they expand and block out a great deal of sound. I used to use them for sleeping because with the foam earplugs, all I could hear was my own breathing. Very peaceful. You can walk around with them in your ears too, workers use them to protect their hearing. Give them a try please.

Hopefully this horrible firecracker phase will come to an end. The animals hate firecrackers as well.

Thank you! My cat hates it too. She hides under the couch and I am very worried she could have health issues because she is 11, so older kitty. I am for now wearing headphones all day which is not comfortable but music helps me cancel other noise. Problem is, sometimes, I really crave just silence. Without headphones or those little earpods with music or anything in my ears. I have those giant padded headset for workers in loud conditions but it's not really comfortable because it literally squeezes your head. I tried silicone earplugs which are great but can damage ear if you wear them too often.
What are foam earplugs? Do you have a photo or page with some samples so I can try to buy them? If they are more comfortable than other alternatives, it would help a lot.
I would just like nice, quiet winter, like it was before. These people who do this torture the whole area and no one can do anything about it. I don't understand why though? It's super expensive to buy all those firecrackers, and it's not fun like at all. I mean it's cold and raining, so why? What kind of mindset does this?

You're welcome.🙏

Aaw, your poor cat. These sounds are putting you both through hell. I wish we lived in a far more considerate world, I really do. It's the Soccer World Cup happening at the moment too, so maybe the firecrackers will at least reduce after the soccer has finished.

These foam earplugs are cheap and I'm sure are available everywhere. The hardware store should stock them. And good on you for trying all sorts of things as well. Hopefully these will be comfortable in your ears , they're very light and soft. Non-intrusuve as you can see in the picture Biba_yu.

You mentioned there was some construction happening in your area Biba_yu. Are you sure the constant explosive sounds aren't nail guns being used by builders? They give off a firecracker-like sound and are used to drive nails into timber. If the sounds are from nail guns then it will go away when construction is finished. I pray these sounds will stop.🙏

*Maybe builders are working well into the night, I don't know.

Firecrackers are things of young people. That pretty much explains everything really.

Hang in there please @Biba_yu. I know how intense and terrible the anxiety and depression, anger, can become. It's very horrible, day in and day out. Depressing.

It is important that you find a way out for your emotional wellbeing. Ongoing suffering is so draining and awful, yes, like hell. If worse comes to worse maybe living somewhere quieter, away from built up residential areas, will be the answer. Yes, somewhere quiet with nice neighbors.

Thank you @mote.of.soul for pictures, I think I can find those and I hope they will block the noise to at least some level. I have silicone ear plugs but they are not really comfortable for longer wear.

I don't think the noise is from construction site, as those constructions last for 2 years and pretty much I know how it sounds. They usually end by 4 or 5 pm. What bothers me is how aren't the other people so agitated like me? I mean someone had to know or recognize who are those who make the noise, it's buildings and windows all around you can't hide from people especially if you make such noise. I heard people who are complaining about that noise, but how is that no one yet saw who does this and did something about, like turning them to police? I just have to accept I can't do anything about it and I will spend another Holidays alone surrounded by horrible noise, explosions and other people celebrating. like I am not sad and depressed and anxious enough, I need to feel like I am in the middle of war too.

Thanks for trying to help, I guess I will have to stock on earplugs of different kinds and see what works best.

@Biba_yu
I know.🙏 One reason is that sometimes people are afraid to turn people in, in case of revenge. Or maybe none or very few people have actually complained to the police. Maybe give the police a call every day until they take action. And does your building have a building manager Biba_yu? This person needs to know that tenants aren't happy with the noise. The building manager should be proactive about stopping the fireworks. It's obviously terribly noisy and a fire hazard too.

I hope you get yourself a packet of the foam earplugs very soon Biba_yu. I'm real sorry about the firecrackers but hopefully things will change in time. Just hold on a bit longer.🙏

I suffered from sensitivity to noise (and agitation) 20 yrs ago, it was horrible! I couldn't live in apartments with all the noise (children running around, stereos, etc.). In the hospital every noise startled me. Sensitivity to noise can be a symptom of bipolar disorder or depression or other disorders. My sensitivity finally stopped several yrs ago, thank god. Geodon stopped my agitation in its tracks.

It's not that, it's the fact that anyone could drop the firecracker and disappear. It's difficult to find the one who did it. That's why probably no one bothers, not even police. I bough foam earplugs just like the one you showed on picture and I also bought wireless earbuds for music but I am disappointed in there because they lose contact with computer the second I leave the room. Their scope is really poor. Luckily they were cheap (maybe that's why they have bad scope). But better than nothing.

I know how it feel. I think it's called misophonia. At first I was agitated by everything, sounds of doors slummed shut, banging with hammer, dragging chairs over the hard floor... it was overwhelming! But I managed to block some of it out by music or headset and various other ways. Sometimes, if there are loud repairs or works around if I can I leave for a long walk. Problem with firecrackers is the sudden extremely loud sound and the anticipation of next explosion. It also quite reminds me of war days, especially fireworks so it's also triggering to me. For now, I just try to block it with everything I can, earplugs, antiphones, music.. whatever works. But it's exhausting because I crave silence especially when I am tired and just want some peace.
I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety by several doctors, no one mentioned bipolar but I was always wondering... can they miss that? I have episodes when I am super happy then suddenly drop into depression, but it's mild and not that obvious and it can be missed. I don't know if that is a symptom though.