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I'm sorry about your son. That sounds very challenging, and could potentially contribute to anxiety reactions for most anyone.

Do you have a caregiver support group by chance? People who can relate directly to your situation, and offer meaningful support? Even if you aren't the main person who's caring for him day to day, you're potentially the person he sees as closest to him- in that, he'll likely see you as the person he's most comfortable with, and may direct more of his unpleasant behaviors at you. Caregiver burnout is a very real problem for family members, even at a bit of a distance.

It sounds like you have some good boundaries with him already. It's okay to have those, and it's also okay if you look after your own needs first too. His issues may be beyond his control, but you're treating him as well as you can without compromising yourself.

Big ((((hugs)))) for you. I hope you are having a good day.

Thank you so much for your kind post. No I don't have a support group for caregivers. I have a lot of physical issues going on right now as well. I'm trying my.best to be patient with him but when I see that it's him calling my heart starts racing. The weekend visit was very scary. I was afraid bc he kept coming out of his room looking at me weird and he did that over and over. We both decided overnight visits are a no go right now.

He's saying that place is starving him and all kinds of ridiculous things. But he calls over and over. The new place where he's at goes on outings . Like today they went bowling. He didn't go. My family and I think he's on the spectrum and that he functions as a 16 year old. He's very very selfish. He thinks my money is his money. I live on a fixed income. His needs are met there but he wants money for nicotine pouches, energy drinks and food. We can't afford it. We can afford pouches but he uses more than is directed and then he's wanting more. He's just very hard to deal with. I could contact Nami about support groups but I'm too anxious to drive there. This anxiety has ruined my life.