[lawyer0017]

I had a little freak out today...wasn't too exciting. See my mimi (dads mom) died oct. 29th of this year and my gramma(moms mom) isn't doing to well she has copd. my gramma raised me as a child and she has always been a big part of my life. well this morning i get a text from my mom while im at work saying my gramma, yet again, went into the hospital. all i could think about was what would happen if she died before the holidays. and how i would react to everything. i dont think i could take it. if she passed on it will be the third person this year that i knew. a good friend of mine died in june my mimi in october and my gramma keeps getting sick. and i feel so guilty because i was sick and i was still around her. i know better than that she gets sick so easily now a days. i shouldn't have been so stupid. i started picking my thumbs and biting like crazy. i couldnt take the tension i felt and the horrible guilt that if she died it would have been my fault. this burden that i have that everything that happens is my fault is getting old...i need help!

[gimmeice]

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If your grandma passes it isn't your fault. I also think that everything is my fault so I know that it can make things extra difficult. Try to remember that your grandma has health issues that can't possibly be your fault for and blaming yourself isn't going to help anything. I am sorry that your grandma is sick.

[lawyer0017]

i know its not my fault. but some where along the way i thought that it could all come back to me. i always feel guilty for everything.