[bellaviolet]

i hate to whine but i'm so tired of f-ing ocd. i don't think i'd have half the problems i have with depression if it weren't for the ocd. i'm tired of worrying about the stove, and the door, and all that crap. i'm tried of the racing thoughts and the f-ing running commentary thats always going on in my head. then harm thoughts. the worrying about everything. my mind is never just at rest. NEVER. the pills didn't really help and are too much $$ anyway, t helped a little but only a little. why'd i have to end up with this stupid crappy disorder? i want it to go away. but its not going to and its stuff like that that makes me get depressed and want to cut and drink and stuff.

sorry not trying to whine just to vent, but sorry if i sound like i'm whining. i'm just having a very rough week.

Feel free to vent....no apology necessary!!!

I have some OCD stuff too, but I honestly don't know what the "cure" is. I take klonopin and that helps a little, because as my anxiety goes down, the OCD stuff is better...but it doesn't take care of it 100%. I'll be interested to hear what others have to say.

Be gentle with you!

[gimmeice]

((((((((((((( bellaviolet ))))))))))))))))))))

I don't know the cure for ocd but this week a T gave me an exercise to try with it. To start you make a chart and write down activities that cause your anxiety in this case it would be rituals or other ocd things. Rate each activity using the one to ten scale, ten being the worse. Try some of the one activities and write down on the chart how it went, like for instance a one for me would be not checking something that causes a little anxiety. This Ts theory is if you slowly work your way up to harder activities it will get easier and your anxiety will lower, I have no idea if it works. This is not my normal T and I am going to share the exercise with my T before trying it.
Here are some hugs for you.

[aria83]

Originally Posted by gimmeice

((((((((((((( bellaviolet ))))))))))))))))))))

I don't know the cure for ocd but this week a T gave me an exercise to try with it. To start you make a chart and write down activities that cause your anxiety in this case it would be rituals or other ocd things. Rate each activity using the one to ten scale, ten being the worse. Try some of the one activities and write down on the chart how it went, like for instance a one for me would be not checking something that causes a little anxiety. This Ts theory is if you slowly work your way up to harder activities it will get easier and your anxiety will lower, I have no idea if it works. This is not my normal T and I am going to share the exercise with my T before trying it.
Here are some hugs for you.

I have some ocd issues as well as some phobias and anxiety. This sounds like an interesting exercise. My therapist suggested something sort of like this. Although there were no intervals, just to sit with the feeling of "what if I didn't do ____" when really I know I did.

(((((bellaviolet)))))

[bellaviolet]

thanks for the replies everyone... i usually deal with this a little better but like i said this has been a tough week. the hardest thing is the not being able to just clear my mind. in a way it feels like i never really get to rest, even when i'm sleeping. so i feel like i'm always tired.

hmm, gimmeice, the thought of that exercise scares the bejesus out of me. i'm a chicken about my triggers so the thought of intentionally setting myself off... sounds almost like building a tolerance to a poison.

my t's big cure was "tell yourself it's not real, just the ocd, your brain trying to trick you". and that works sometimes but it's a crapshoot. even though i know it's not real it still make me freak out. feeling a little better today anyway. i appreciate everyone's support here...

(((((((everyone)))))))

[madisgram]

(((bella)))) the ocd must keep you worn out! in your therapy did u discuss how it made u feel? jme, but i realized early on that i had to "direct" my therapy...meaning what i brought up that was affecting me enabled my T to give me guidance and help me develop coping skills. do u feel comfortable discsusing the ocd with your therapist? like how you feel and your frustration with it?
i hope this helps you in some way and that you can get on the road to recovery from your ocd. there's no cure but with meds and good therapy and your involvement it may truly help you.

[ihateit]

Originally Posted by bellaviolet

i hate to whine but i'm so tired of f-ing ocd. i don't think i'd have half the problems i have with depression if it weren't for the ocd. i'm tired of worrying about the stove, and the door, and all that crap. i'm tried of the racing thoughts and the f-ing running commentary thats always going on in my head. then harm thoughts. the worrying about everything. my mind is never just at rest. NEVER. the pills didn't really help and are too much $$ anyway, t helped a little but only a little. why'd i have to end up with this stupid crappy disorder? i want it to go away. but its not going to and its stuff like that that makes me get depressed and want to cut and drink and stuff.

sorry not trying to whine just to vent, but sorry if i sound like i'm whining. i'm just having a very rough week.

I don't know much about OCD, I know a lot about anxiety and racing thoughts and the running commentary that's in my head. I also take klonopin and it really helps, and my T is pretty good. I suppose we all wish we didn't end up with the disorders we have, it sux, and lately I haven't been in the best of worlds either. I feel for you, and I hope you can find a way to to feel better! All I can offer are words of encouragement, hopefully things are better already, and I vent here a lot, keep it up if that's what ya need to do, that's what we're here for!

Sending

[Sannah]

Bella, I think that you would have luck by working on the anxiety. I think that we are anxious because we didn't have the luxury of feeling secure when we were growing up. Working on your feelings from the past would be a way to start. Is your life pretty stable now?