[v214k]

I don't think I'm fat at all... In fact I've been slightly underweight all of my life... But when I don't take my xanax.... I just feel like the food is dirty and I can't eat it... I just get so grossed out and I'm constantly examining it. I literally cannot eat anything if I don't take a xanax before my meal... I hate that.

[insomniac879]

That's strange...I was recently diagnosed with anxiety as well, but nothing like that has ever happened to me...I hope you figure it out though

[v214k]

Yeah I have no idea.... It really sucks though because I'm like afraid to eat unless I take xanax. Food grosses me out so much that I don't even have an appetite ;\

Have you checked the eating disorders out?
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=46001

heres a link to it on PC
take care of you
muffy

[AnaHannah]

Welcome to MY World! Food and eating is a major source of anxiety for me.... but for other reasons. I have a "germ-fetish" kinda,...I won't eat in restaurants....but then I have food allergies, too! Actually, it's about RPT, "The Relentless Pursuit of Thinness"......but I have not gone to the ED site on here yet.....it's the least of my worries! I compulsively count calories and a triple digit weight is just out of the question!!
Can you prepare your own food? Do you get anxious over that, too?
I am a strict Vegan.....I cook from scratch for myself. I pretty much will not eat something made by someone else. Oy vey!

[v214k]

I have thank you Muffy!!

I'm not sure I have an eating disorder though.. I've always been underweight but I don't think I'm fat... It upsets me when I can't eat unless I take a xanax so I dont have to think about the food is dirty... It sounds so weird I know... Maybe subconsciously I actually do think I'm fat or I'm afraid of getting fat?? That could be the root of this. All I know is it really disrupts my life if I dont have a xanax nearby when going out to eat. It's quite frustrating.

[v214k]

Originally Posted by AnaHannah

Welcome to MY World! Food and eating is a major source of anxiety for me.... but for other reasons. I have a "germ-fetish" kinda,...I won't eat in restaurants....but then I have food allergies, too! Actually, it's about RPT, "The Relentless Pursuit of Thinness"......but I have not gone to the ED site on here yet.....it's the least of my worries! I compulsively count calories and a triple digit weight is just out of the question!!
Can you prepare your own food? Do you get anxious over that, too?
I am a strict Vegan.....I cook from scratch for myself. I pretty much will not eat something made by someone else. Oy vey!

I'm not trying to get thin... I'm actually afraid to get any thinner then I am. Most of the anxiety comes from eating out at restaurants because I worked in the food industry for so long so I know what goes on behind the scenes, so I just feel like everything is dirty. I can prepare my own food and feel fine... but even then I have weird habits of picking things apart and only eating certain portions of the meal. I have no idea why I do this because I don't think that I am fat. I'm totally baffled.
I also never count calories... I just eat what I like. I don't try to eat healthy or anything. Hm..

[AnaHannah]

v21; Be glad you don't have an ED at this point, but be vigilant in case it gets worse. Recognize your symptoms too, so, you can head it off at The Pass; so to speak. ;-) My anxiety/panic has greatly subsided since I took this approach.
Thanks to everyone who responded!
By the way, about the "breathing"; I have been "trained' in Bio-Feedback....back when I had a "real" job, my insurance paid for it! "The Hartje Stress Clinic" in Jacksonville, Fla. I just need to brush-up on it.

Originally Posted by v214k

I have thank you Muffy!!

I'm not sure I have an eating disorder though.. I've always been underweight but I don't think I'm fat... It upsets me when I can't eat unless I take a xanax so I dont have to think about the food is dirty... It sounds so weird I know... Maybe subconsciously I actually do think I'm fat or I'm afraid of getting fat?? That could be the root of this. All I know is it really disrupts my life if I dont have a xanax nearby when going out to eat. It's quite frustrating.

Yw aww My son went threw something like this. No meds involved thou.
he got on a roll losing weight and it got away from him. He would not eat anything that looked like it maybe not good
He too thought he was heavy and this was after losing 100 ibs. He after losing that was no way heavy, The self image stuck in his brain.
Talk to your Dr if you can
Wishing you the best
Muffy

[Atalia]

I get anxiety about food but not about germs or calories. I have a fear of something giving me an allergic reaction, which is not completely out of the question as i have a history of drug reactions and food intolerances, but too over the top to be normal (haha whats normal).

dont know how i deal with it other than eating stuff i know well and cook myself. I try new stuff but it can set off a round of panics so i dont bother usually.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

I started out feeling that every piece of meat was contaminated, when I looked at it all I could see was blood running out of it, a life ended so that I could eat; that made me feel ill and guilty. It got to the stage where I vomited after a ham sandwich (that was in 1995).

I have only eaten certified vegetarian, non-genetically modified organic food since. And I am totally concerned with proving to myself that it is certified non gm, organic and vegetarian. If I get it into my head once that what I am looking at is not gm or veg or organic I just cannot eat it. That has not changed once in the last 14 years. So I do understand in one way, though it is different to your issue, I understand the difficulty of having food issues.

[SICKlySweet]

Originally Posted by v214k

I don't think I'm fat at all... In fact I've been slightly underweight all of my life... But when I don't take my xanax.... I just feel like the food is dirty and I can't eat it... I just get so grossed out and I'm constantly examining it. I literally cannot eat anything if I don't take a xanax before my meal... I hate that.

Maybe it is sub-conscience, because the first time I had "food eating problems" was when I was 10, I was always the slender, high metabolism, big appetite kid growing up. I got really sick (but didn't know what was going on) I had never had a problem with food and eating it. I wasn't concerned about my weight. When ever I was around food, even just the scent of it would totally turn me off, I would feel full, and real sick to my stomach, most times I would go throw up. My parents tried to offer me my favorite foods, I knew I loved them, that was the most upsetting thing, and yet it just made me so sick.

I told this to a T, just a few weeks ago, and she said you may not have thought of it as trying to lose weight, or wanting to, but that I may sub-conscienciously have been trying to control something within myself for myself. I still am not sure, as I have not studied the brain, and do know that it is very complicated.

I definitely had been controlled alot at that time. I had to force feed myself, because there was no help at home, and because in my earlier years at school I had acted out, the teachers didn't care either. I showed them the weight loss, and nothing happened.

I hope you get to the bottom of this, and what it truly is that is not allowing yourself to eat. (what the problem with the food is, y u feel it is dirty, ect..)

I have heard that Xanax is very addicting, that may be a very difficult thing for you to stop doing once you figure out what the problem is, to try to begin eating without it. You may even have anxiety about having to use Xanax just to be able to calm anxiety about eating...:S

Take Care.

[romanjames2004]

I have alot of OCD about food. It is like a must for me to finish everything... otherwise I feel wasteful. Its hard becasue I have to burn more calories than I should.