Melodidy

Ever since I was young. I would always obsess over female teachers who appeared strong,smart and motherly especially towards me. Growing up i didnt get to experience motherly love. So i find myself searching for a 'woman' who will fulfill this desier. This have always ended in me getting hurt or misinterpreting the actions of these women. I did that too in highschool in college i did that and now with my coworkers am still doing it. Its like no matter how hard i try i will still find someone who will make me obsess over them. I dont usually act on it. I just obsess from a distance because there's nothing i frar more than rejection. I find my self obsessing over fictional characters too. Oh God i feel like a freak. I didnt realise the effects of it before but now I do. I was afraid and very ashamed because ive always thought i was alone but after finding some related searches i feel better. If any of you have gone through this or still going through it. Could you pls recommend me a way to try and overcome this? Its getting tiring and affecting me because i try so hard to please them. NB I dont feel any sexual attraction toward them. Its purely maternal. Thanks.

just2b

I am the same way, and find it can happen with any female, co worker, older, younger, an actress, singer whomeever...I have not found a way out of it yet