[peaceweb602]

i'm so disturbed. i can't even focus for a few minutes on my work. i want physical stimulation such as food in my mouth and i need to move a lot. i don't know why i am like this. is it because my values are misplaced. i don't put my work ahead of my comfort. when i'm hungry, i go eat. when i feel like enjoying the weather, i go out for a walk... even at the expense of my work, studying. i feel like such a failure and such an amoral person. my work should come first, above my comforts. i feel selfish, or actually am selfish. i constantly get angry because there's so much work for me to do and i'm not very bright. it takes me awhile and work keeps piling up. i'm super sloppy. i can't keep up and i rage all the time when people ask for me. i'm unaware with how to handle myself. i need help...

[Warrioress]

You speak for me peaceweb. I often have most if not all of the thoughts and feelings that you mention. I'm not so quick to call myself selfish and sloppy though. If it is indeed a disorder that we have, then the disorder is to blame to a great extent. But maybe it is not only the illness. Probably our own persona has a part in all this. I'm really confused myself at the moment.

[chelledotcom]

I can identify with alot of those issues. I have a job that is 100% data entry, and I HATE it. Im always fidgeting, looking around, getting up, playing with stuff. I was the kid in school who had the messiest desk, and always got in trouble for it. My house is always messy, I can't find anything. I get about half as much work done as I should (and others who work with me do), and I can get angry at the most unimportant things, and I yell or break things without thinking. Its very frustrating!

[luna22]

Peaceweb it sounds like you are becoming overwhelmed with all the work you have to do and frustrated with yourself because you are not putting those work tasks first. You are not alone, many of us here are the same way. As I've gotten older (I'm 45) I have calmed down some. When I was in college the first time I could not do it- I could never focus. I am back in school now and I am able to take three classes at a time- any more than that and...well it's just not good. I never went on meds or even saw a doctor- at that time I didn't have health insurance. Anyway if I could go back in time and give my younger self some advice it would be this- life is about the journey not the destination- do not feel like you have to go to school full time- I would have been much better off having a balance in my life and taking one class at a time and working. Full time college was just not in the cards for me. You didn't say what you were studying- but it help if the subject is interesting to you- if it's not you might think about changing that. ADD and a boring career don't mix. Good luck~