[musicsinmysoul]

My apologies in advance if this is in the wrong section, but I couldn't fine somewhere else to post.

I've known about my adhd for about 7 months now, and I've recently stopped taking my meds due to a new benefits package at work that's kicking in starting Feb. I can tell that I need my meds, and when I don't take them I tend to suffer socially as well as relating to work (I was suspended from work for a bad attitude and I lost track of my thoughts during a phone interview for a job -- I did get a sit down interview out of it though).

Getting back on track, I wanted to try and go without meds to see if it was something I could deal with on my own, but I'm noticing myself lately as how I used to be/act when I didn't know I had the condition.

I would pace around my room with my headphones in and dance to music, often using props as like a microphone(this was when I was in highschool, I'm an only child and had nothing better to do). I think this is kind of strange, because I've been doing it lately. I will have conversations with myself when I'm alone about certain situations that I guess I'm hoping will happen. I think you could consider this daydreaming. It's not like people are around and Im talking to myself and they're watching..I'm always alone and I've never told anyone because well....it's strange. Isn't it? It's usually always something involving me making money from something. For example.. earlier yesterday I was alone and was having a conversation out loud with myself and a potential employer(I got called for a job interview but wasn't home to get the call), I was telling the conversation as if I got the job right away and got a really big raise, money up front and stuff and just...things that aren't really realistic. I guess it makes me feel better, maybe im subconciously trying to feel good about myself. It's not that I actually believe these things are happening, but im daydreaming about them being real.

I just wanted to know what I should do...should I tell my psychiatrist or.. this is something I've been doing for a really long time, sometimes every day, and I can't say it's affecting me but, sometimes I break down and cry because I know that some of the things would never happen..like getting back with my ex boyfriend or something crazy like that haha.

Does this seem weird to you guys too? Is this a medical condition as well, or...I just..I don't really want to keep doing it and I feel like I feel driven to do it because it makes me feel better sometimes. Has anyone else ever done this?

Feel free to share any stories..I just need to hear your thoughts.

[MudCrab]

Hello, musicsinmysoul. My thought is for you to tell your psychiatrist and ask for samples of the meds to get you through to February.

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[Perna]

It sounds like you dealt with some of your problems in high school with the music/dancing and talking to self, etc. and it comforted you a bit; now without meds to help stay focused and having not yet learned better ways to cope, you are using a method that worked for you in the past, that's good, in a sense, because your body/self knows what you like(d) and what helped, etc. You are trying to help yourself as best you know how.

I would get some counselling to learn better ways to cope and get back on your meds as soon as you can. I did not figure out what was going on until my 20's and by then I had 10-15 years of bad habits that were hard to break/work my way out of.

[Epiphany111]

You know, I swear to god I do almost the exact same stuff! I know that when your day dreams become aggressive or super negative it is called "maladaptive daydreaming". I know that mine sometimes are negative and I can make myself cry...a lot...especially because I work alone all day, so I am pretty much left to my own devices here.
Most of the time thought my day dreams are based around people that I am attracted to. I imagine running into them and having them adore me in some sort of way. Like having them show up to the bar that I just happen to be singing at that night, or showing up to my house at my party and thinking how could I must be...yeah...kind of lame...especially because I am 21 lol.

[musicsinmysoul]

Originally Posted by Epiphany111

You know, I swear to god I do almost the exact same stuff! I know that when your day dreams become aggressive or super negative it is called "maladaptive daydreaming". I know that mine sometimes are negative and I can make myself cry...a lot...especially because I work alone all day, so I am pretty much left to my own devices here.
Most of the time thought my day dreams are based around people that I am attracted to. I imagine running into them and having them adore me in some sort of way. Like having them show up to the bar that I just happen to be singing at that night, or showing up to my house at my party and thinking how could I must be...yeah...kind of lame...especially because I am 21 lol.

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Thanks for posting that! I didn't really understand the "maladaptive daydreaming" thing until you kind of explained it. So I wouldn't say I'm that extreme, just sometimes I feel like I'm like "oh that would be better than whatever situation I'm in right now" so I start from that. I don't think I can consider myself obsessive about it because sometimes I go to start and realize like no, this isn't normal. But it's normal for me so I guess I can't argue with that.

But honestly I'm glad you said that because that sounds exactly like what I do. And I'm 21 as well..I deff feel weird about it but yet better because I'm not the only one apparently, ya know?