[xxxispillcoffeexxx]

Cannot focus, speak or act with certain anxiety and impulse, thoughts are bombarded with color sight, meditation and sound. Cannot even finish a book and retain it.

I am looking for advice on calming my mind and thoughts and building focus and positive expressions. Have not been diagnosed as ADD but have had attention and focus problems my whole life. Even when I speak my ideas blurt out and I topic jump to un-similar things.

I try taking deep breathes and noticing the thigs around me, smell, sound, feel etc and that sometimes helps. I know how you feel, I've been there a lot too and it's not a very fun place to be.

[psychmajortwenty2]

Originally Posted by xxxispillcoffeexxx

Cannot focus, speak or act with certain anxiety and impulse, thoughts are bombarded with color sight, meditation and sound. Cannot even finish a book and retain it.

I am looking for advice on calming my mind and thoughts and building focus and positive expressions. Have not been diagnosed as ADD but have had attention and focus problems my whole life. Even when I speak my ideas blurt out and I topic jump to un-similar things.

Your thoughts are bombarded with meditation? Or meditation is bombarded with sound?

[oil_and_water]

I feel similar, and I have been diagnosed with ADHD since the 3rd grade. I took stimulants off and on ever since then, nothing has really gotten to the core issues though. I have existential thought crises and often my mind races from topic to topic until I can't even remember where I started without working backwards. I write reminders and set alarms, which are a big help. The rest has yet to be solved, one step at a time my friend.

[psychmajortwenty2]

Originally Posted by oil_and_water

I feel similar, and I have been diagnosed with ADHD since the 3rd grade. I took stimulants off and on ever since then, nothing has really gotten to the core issues though. I have existential thought crises and often my mind races from topic to topic until I can't even remember where I started without working backwards. I write reminders and set alarms, which are a big help. The rest has yet to be solved, one step at a time my friend.

OH MAN! I went through some of my existential thought crises too. It's weird. People didn't understand because I'm still so young apparently to be having those.. yet... I do.

How do yours start?

I've had two where it actually turned into a depressive episode (from what I can remember, ADHD people are apparently poor observers so maybe I've had more and didn't know it... ? Ahg. I don't know)

[oil_and_water]

Originally Posted by psychmajortwenty2

OH MAN! I went through some of my existential thought crises too. It's weird. People didn't understand because I'm still so young apparently to be having those.. yet... I do.

How do yours start?

I've had two where it actually turned into a depressive episode (from what I can remember, ADHD people are apparently poor observers so maybe I've had more and didn't know it... ? Ahg. I don't know)

I am usually thinking about the motives behind the things I do and end up realizing that none of it matters, regardless of any meaning I ascribe to it. That is where all my thoughts converge, it feels impossible to avoid.

[Arwen_78]

Hi ispillcoffee,

Sorry to hear you spilled the sweet nectar that is coffee. I just wanted to say that I've been living with ADD my whole life and have had some control of mine without help or meds.

I was on Ritalin and Adderall as a child/teen and they helped to a certain degree. Yet, I look back now and realized they didn't help it all. I was closed off from most of my peers, not from lack of trying just lack of being able to care about anyone else but myself. I felt that my problems must be wrose than anyone else's. I was also slightly depressed a lot of thoses years.

Now I have the feeling that most of what I'm learning in classes isn't sticking, I can still somewhat recall it if needed. The longer the period of time the better I might remember things. I have many friends who live all over the world. I've traveled and leard alot about myself. Still, I'm getting psychological help for my ADD next month. I'm open to drug therapy once again if they think it is needed. They know a lot more now than the did in the early 80's to the late 90's.

If it helps I'll be starting a blog about my new life's journey on here. Request me as a friend and I'll post you the address when I get it up. Plus maybe give me some tips on what you feel might help you.

Arwen