[Foofightersfan200]

Well here it goes

I have only recently realized i think i have ADD. I know its not ADHD because i am not hyperactive. I'm 19 years old, graduated school at the end of 2013, got no job and done one course. I mostly found out that i have always been distracted by things, i can't concentrate properly, i just don't understand things etc all the symptoms BUT NOBODY BELIEVES ME!!! My parents just don't think i have it. I told my psychiatrist and he thinks its stress and anxiety but no it is not! I remember back when i was little i had these problems and not even realizing and not even caring and i take medication for my stress and anxiety and i barley have it so i know it's not that because i don't have stress and anxiety when i get distracted and can't concentrate etc. Say this, in school and my course, having a conversation with a friend, watching a movie etc, i would just sit there and not think what are they talking about and i didn't know what they would talk about and i just sat there not thinking what they are talking about and didn't think of asking what are they talking about or whatever. I just don't ******* understand things like people do!! I live in australia, so don't say go to college because there is no college here, after school its either go study a course of your interest at TAFE or go to uni. So i studied a short course in film and thought it would take my interest. But it didn't. It just ******* didn't. I found it so boring tbh. I couldn't understand it like everybody else did and i had alot of trouble using the camera and it was just a standard handheld camera! I had trouble with coming up with ideas for little short clips i had to make. I had help from a disablity's officer and alot of the time she told me answers to things, came up with ideas for me and basically did all the work with the camera! After doing the course for a few months i barley know the shot sizes and how they work! Hell even after 13 years of schooling i barley know basic maths! I just don't understand how people in school, people in uni and people that go to work and all that understand every ******* thing about it. I just don't know what to do, nothing interests me at all. I want to get a hospitality job but i don't know what area and how i would cope because i am not fast enough and i got told they mostly hire beautiful women and i think that is so ******* sexist. I am the most ugliest guy and i know they won't hire me. My mum won't help me get a job because my grandparents never helped her. My dad helps me more but not enough. For the distractions, whenever i tried to study for school and i never ever did study for school i would always get distracted and always did something else instead of studying and i get distracted when i am driving (i am still learning to drive, here in australia its different i have to do 100 hours of learning driving, i've done them all but i am too scared and worried to go for my P's licence, i also don't even have my own car, also my dad is my guide, i don't drive my mums car because it's a clunky piece of **** it doesn't work properly i am too scared to drive it, btw they are seperated) anyway something like i get distracted like there maybe a stop sign or red light ahead and i am sitting there thinking of something else and my dad says "do you see whats ahead?" "there is a stop sign/red light ahead" etc and then i realise and i might see something that distracts me and i nearly hit a car or something. I am so scared of driving on my own that i am going to loose concentration. My mum says don't drive but i want to drive! I am sick of relying on the train (except for going to my local city) for transport for most of the time. My mum won't drive me anywhere and but my dad will sometimes.
Basically also my interests are just video games, watching movies, collecting collectables, watching porn.

I just don't know what the **** to do. I am too lazy to list all the symptoms of add and i realised i have them all and nobody at all believes me, they think i am lying. I don't know how the **** i am supposed to get there in life with these problems. I know it's not aspergers as i was tested for it was younger and it turned out i didn't have it, so if it's not that or ADD. I don't know what else could it be. I know i have something wrong with me. Help me.

[kaliope]

i would say to go to a dr who specialized in ADD and get tested and then you will have your answer. but is that going to solve your problems knowing? get a new dr who will listen to your concerns. that is another option.

[Redsoft]

I realize there is a lot of stuff at once, but I agree with kaliope - having a therapist that takes your concerns seriously would be a major help. If you don't have a choice but to stay with this one for whatever reason (or otherwise are fine with them), I'd really push it. Demand it. It's your time, your money, your appointment. I'd really try starting there.