tired of feeling stupid

Hello my name is kris and this is my first post. I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago. Recently I found out the root of my depression is add. I feel releaved in one way but discouraged in another. For 10 years I have been dropping in and out of college trying to better myself. I feel extremly afraid to even try to better myself because the odds are so against me. If its not the add then its the depression that keeps me from wanting to go on. Sometimes I pray that God would just take me away. What do I have to look forward to? Low income, medication, being sad all the time. I am tired of feeling like such an unacomplished loser. The only person that keeps me grounded is my 7 year old daughter. She has put up with alot of my problems. I am a single mother and have been in two other relationships since I left her father and his abusive ways. I have got her hopes up of having a father figure in her life basically because I am drawn to people that like to control me. I am tired of this failing cycle I am in and just want to feel good.

Just a quick reply, your life can work fine, meds, naturally the right ones, makes all the difference in treatting ADD, plus talk therapy can help.
I have 2 brothers, one has ADD, probably from childhood, it wasn't till his late 40's and early 50's that the pdoc he found, dxed him properly, here is a guy that dropped out of HS, etc.
Then once medicated his life changed, he got his equivalncy diploma and then went to college, and did well too
Don't sell yourself short, you can make it, and if meds for life, so what, you want to improve your life and feel better that is the most important, hey diabetics, epileptics, people with heart conditions, and other things take meds for life, the main thing is how they give you a better quality life, right?
Just hang in there, work with this and I feel confident in time it will all work out.
I wish you lots of love and luck with this

DE

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Hi Krissy/britt as I was reading your letter I feel as if you need a break from your emotions and responsibilities for a bit which is not a bad thing it is a good thing to stand back and take a freash look at things.It would be great to get a clear perspective. I am sure I have ADD but I was never diagnosed. I am a mother ,and grandmother. But I was a single mom until I was 32yrs old by then I had 3 wonderful kids I had to raise alone. It is good to talk with someone with similar issues. I hope we ge to talk more. You know God loves you more than you can imagine. Through God he will strengthen you and pull you out of the rut you are in. He always sends help in tinme of trouble. Hold on to him he is your help . I hope we can continue talking my name is Jill. take care now and talk with you soon LOL

You are not alone. I have suffered from depression just about all my life. I also found out today I am ADD. There have been times in my life I just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. My faith is the only thing that kept me going. I was in what I call my "black hole" and felt hopeless, that I had nothing to live for. I have tried twice to get of my meds and it's not pretty. I have learned to realize that I need the meds and will have to take them for the rest of my life. I have 2 children, a five year old and three year old. I had to get better for my kids. I didn't want my kids to suffer because of me. I feel stupid most of the time too. I can never express myself, nothing ever comes out right. I am hoping the rx I start next week will change this. So I do have hope, that's what keeps me going. I'm sure you have wonderful traits that you can't see yourself. I always feel guilty that I don't do enough or don't measure up. Everyone else thinks I'm a saint, and very talented, and I think I don't deserve it. Maybe I'll be able to see myself in a new light and get a little confidence. I would like to describe myself the way others do. You hang in there, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Things WILL get better you just have to have believe that. I'm not a religious nut, I just know God won't put you in a situation you can't handle. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. Things happen for a reason no matter how bad they are. I had a pretty awful childhood. That really helps me to appreciate all I have now. Hope this helps!