[beadlady29-old]

hurt you teh mostest? and y do they have ta say mean thign bout you like call you bad names such as psycho behind ur back? sorry..just dotn get it. y is he even hear then if we so bad?
beads

[Omers]

You are good, it is the people that abuse you that have the problem. I don't think we've "met" yet so I don't know a lot about you. The post is in the Aspi/Auti section. Do you or some of your parts have aspergers/autism? Just curious. I am aspi and have parts that run the spectrum... we are all on it somewhere. I don't know any other auti/aspi DID people though. I would like to.
anyway. hope you are OK. I am around if you need someone to "listen".

[beadlady29-old]

Hi Omers, adn thank you far answerign beads post. ta anser your questoin, yes, beads parts all of them is autistic, altho some worser then other. we are also DID, PTSD, ....................
T says that d is abusign us to. beads does not want ta admit that it is happenign again. mabe cuz sometiem he can be vary nice, adn also becuz we no we cant live alone anb beads afraid that cmh will put us in a group (adult foster) home place again iffen we leave him. very scared an confused.
we would love ta talk iffen we can catc h ya hear same time bead is.

Marcie

[Callista]

re. autism and DID--

You guys might like this blog:
http://athenivanidx.wordpress.com/

I've been following it for a while; they are three alters and all on the spectrum.

As far as I can tell, if you have DID and are autistic, then all the alters will be autistic because you share the same physical brain--though some can have better coping skills or better social skills than others.

And, OP, I think if people are hurting you and calling you "psycho", then they are not your friends. Simple as that.

[Omers]

Hi Beads,
When you grow up with abuse sometimes it makes it hard to see when you are back in the abuse.
I have some very autistic parts and some where you can barely tell. It makes it hard for people to help because they are all so different.
I wonder a lot if we will end up in a group home. I can live alone but have not been able to hold down a job for five years. Its really scary.
If you don't see me around feel free to PM.

[beadlady29-old]

((((((((((((((Calista))))))))))))))))
thank u very much far teh link. we are far sure gonna check it uot adn try t read it! beads apperceiate u anserrign uor post very much.
it was ppls in bf family what said that bout beads,,,,,,,,,dunno where they cuold of gootten it from other then bf? not sure. then agin they may of just decided beads that cuz we different adn its rather ovbious dependign on who is uot.when we lived down hoem we was aruond enuf of them long enuf far them to make that decsoin abuot us w./out any info from bf i suppose. so beads really not sure iffen he called us that are not. we do not have teh guts to ask him. also we want ta give him teh benefit of teh duobt adn hope he did not call us that name cuz ye all rite, it is not very nice! beasds wuold hate ta think/no that he clled us a name liek that. dotn wanna have ta no he is that mean. hope he aint.
anythign else iffen yuio wuold liek ta add beads will lissen also.!
hope u is doign well calista, adn thanks agin far replyign ta beads post. yuo always very helpfull ta beads adn we apperceiate ur freindship much.
Marcie an all of us beadies

[beadlady29-old]

((((((((((((((((Omers))))))))))))))))))
Thank you zOmers.
yes it is hard to see, adn even harder to admit. we def. do not feel strong enuf ta do anythign about it at this point, adn since their is not physical abuse, dotn really see teh need to. sticks and stones, ya no.
beads also have some parts that is more obiuos we autistic then others. some of us stutter very badly also.we arre all very much afraid of other ppls irl, some of us deal with that gooder then others. trust seem ta be a very big issue with us as well. it is liek a fiveletter dirty word.
beads is glad far yuo that you are abel to live alone, adn we hope far you that yuo dotn ever have ta end up in one of them gruop/adult foster homes. far beads it is very likely it willhappen agin someday since we have no family are anyoen ta look out far us besisdes bf. it makes it that much harder ta admit that abuse is go onk, altho T says their is to. he say verbal abuse is not rite nwither. but like we used ta ppls. beign not very nice so i say like just whatever, far now anyway. mabe when we get strongert thigns can change. also T is tryuing ta learn us how ta teach bf how ta treat usmore gooder. adn in some things it seem ta be helpign/workign. it is verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry slow process, but in some ways he does seem ta git he need ta treat beads more gooder adn we can see wehre he is tryign someteim.
beads is sorry ta hear u havent beened abel ta hold down a job. we cannot neither, and have beened on S.S. Disability since before we was 21 yurs. old
are main alter is 47 yrs. old now. when we went thru MI Works (govt. funded job placement of some sort) they wuold not even help beads look far no job becuz they said we wuold need to much supervision. that really hurt uor feeligns when they said that. we dotn thunkeds we THAT bad. are mabe dotn wantsa admit, not sure.
beads hears ya on the beign scaird.............uor world is very scarey ta us to. we always seem ta be lookign over uor shuolder, just waitn far teh lead ball ta drop and shatter uor world.
we sent u a pm a few minutes ago. thank yuo far lissenign. alos wuold apperceiate any other input yuo mite have.
lookign forward ta get ta no yuo gooder.
Marcie and all of us beadies
p.s. iffen yuo wuold like, yuo can have one of beads bears ta hold onto when yuo are feelign scaird. they help.

[eskielover]

((((((Beads)))))),

Sorry to hear you are going through all these emotions. I can understand how you need to figure out what you really need in your life. It is sad when we feel that tolerating verbal abuse is something we have to put up with because we don't want to deal with what would happen being alone. I am glad your T is working with your bf about how he relates to you.....hope in the long run it will really make a difference so you will be able to have a peaceful life together without the abuse. No one should be abused.

Just wanted to respond to your post to let you know I care & have been keeping you in my thoughts & prayers.

[beadlady29-old]

thanks eskielover!
ummmm beads pmd youabout this. hope it okay.
hugs,
XO
Mary Sue & ALL

[anderson]

Sending safe thoughts (((( beads)))) we are just starting to work with our autisic children more openly within. we were aware of them but are now sharing time. It is hard when those around you act like you do not matter. Just know that you do matter to us and hopes u feel better wish we could flush the baddies away when they hurt us too.
safe thoughts from all of us to all of you. :>

[beadlady29-old]

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hugs to ye al
beads still tryign ta make the best of what is sometime a unpleasant situation, methinks the hardest part is that he CAN be so nice when want ta be, adn other time just yell, etc. it keep us confused and stuff, ya know. we loseign old T since we had ta move and that really is makeign it hard. hanging on by a fayed thread. eskielover)))))))))))))))))))))))))
oops! not sure how we made the mistake hear debbie and dunno how ta fix it. hope you canhat it supposed ta be.
xo
stephan nd buddy

[Typo]

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[beadlady29-old]

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thanx far hug,,,,,,,beads need rite now very much.
we in proces of sayin last goodbye-s ta old T becuz they will not let us see him no more since we moved outta their county. This sucks beads does not want ta say another pernament goodbye ta someone else.............feel like beign abandoned all over agin.....not liek this

mary sue