[superlocrius]

Im going to send the following list to my psych in the mean time what do you make of it all?

• Eye contact feels unnatural
• Voice changes register tone etc used to be deep baritone now castrati-like switches between these two extremes. I used to have an extremely monotone voice
• As a child incapable of perceiving anger and oblivious to the reactions of other's around me.
• Only recently started to understand that others see the world profoundly differently to me
• Was incredibly blunt opinionated with no self censorship .
• Went through a picking phase with hair nose which went to the extent of picking until I bled or bald patches appeared also grinding jaw and rolling inner lip against moustache compulsively
• Dry textures cause anxiety as well as the sensation of old clothes on wet skin car sounds hand dryers spit swallowing sniffing also cause fight or flight response to be engaged
• Unable to make lasting friendships as I dont understand cues when "enough is enough" or intent I usually aassume hostile or dvious intent.
• Lack of understanding of social cues - only yestereday I slippeda note into a girl's pocket at work rather than speaking to her which would have made her assume that imembarassed to speak to her especially since I never say hello when people are around. Its only recently that this ability to empathise has emerged.
• As a child I was described as lacking empathy same as a teen
• Intense and all consuming interests
• Germophobia Chemical-phobia Occult-phobia. All three are valid concerns but they render my life unlivable at times
• Ability to objectively explore behaviour - I see that my paranoia for instance is pathological but at the same time it still affects me deeply
• In a perpetual state of confusion regarding people's reactions and actions
• Prefer solitude and will need to retreat if im forced into company for any length of time
• Self harm as a way to