Just a curiosity.

So I didn't know where to post this, but I decided here because I figure maybe it's an ASD thing (which I have been diagnosed with). Maybe someone here knows why this is or can relate, I don't know. Just wanted to put it out there after being inspired by another forum on here.

I consider myself very mature and fairly intelligent for someone my age. (21) But here's the thing. I, more often than not, find myself doing very childish things. Like, you know how when you're a kid, you make up imaginary worlds and you walk around and play pretend? I still do that. I pace back and forth very frequently, imagining fantasy scenarios and making sound effects (explosions, laser guns, etc...). I also find myself speaking in fake accents for no reason whatsoever, even if it was not my intention to do so. I often feel as if I'm two different people; on one hand, I am very cynical and angry and misanthropic but often at the same time, I find myself very optimistic and believing in the inherent goodness of people. Not sure if its relevant but I felt it went hand-in-hand.

I was just curious if anyone could relate or maybe explain and maybe it wouldn't be so strange if I knew it was a common thing? It may not even belong here but it seemed the most logical correlation. There is another much darker possibility for it I've considered from limited understanding but I'm choosing to leave that possibility out for now.

It took me to be past 30 for me to have the childish side come back again. But even inbetween I lived partially in a fantasy world. It's just a bit more fun now.

I know what you mean. I'm unsure if it has to do with asd, but i, too, have it, and also do simliar things as you mention. especially the feeling as more than one person... I've often wondered about a DID diagnosis on that. but its not something i plan to ever bring up to others IRL. and the more i get older... the more i wonder...
but yes, you're not the only one who experiences these kind of things. Sometimes we just have to let the inner child out, and be free, and not caring what others think(easier said than done) ; just have fun- there's no rule that says people aren't allowed to have fun.. and i find that most of those who point out others and call them "immature" are usually the true immature people.. as the one being called "immature" are able to be the mature one in the situation, and take it in, along with examining the truth to it. (i would think a true immature person would likely come right back at the person and it would be a big drama fest). I may be very wrong there. but it's just my opinion.

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Hello! new here, just wanted to say I have the same stuff you have. I literally do the same damn thing you do, I don't know why I just do and I am also always angry at literally everything. I personally think it's all the built up disrespect we get for not being normal. I also start mimicking accents when I talk with someone has an accent as well as randomly. They think I'm making fun of them, totally not doing it on purpose just happens and I realize it like 5 minutes in or until they say something. I've made up so many fantasy worlds it's not even funny. It's because life itself is not somewhere I want to be, and yes I also do the pew pew sounds and make it sound like other people are there. Literally last night I reenacted world war II in the kitchen for like 30 minutes