Never tried or couldn't mimic?

I've always been fiercely independent and opinionated in personality. At most these days I subconsciously copy accents and hand gestures. I'd much rather find people like me or those who fit in well enough. That is incredibly difficult.

When I was younger, before my diagnosis, I suppose I must have copied to a degree. That mostly stopped by the time I was 16 and had entirely stopped at the age of about 19. I never really wore any "masks" and although I used to want a lot of friends, I wasn't willing to not be myself.

People don't like that. They either get bored or annoyed and 98% (roughly) of the time they just up and leave. Or, worse, "politely" ignore you until a couple of years later you take the hint.

I'm 25, recently confirmed diagnosis. Should I conform, play the role, appease, or should I remain how I am? If I do the latter my diagnosis and subsequent treatment feels unlikely to change that too much.

Anybody feel the same way? I want to hear your take on the matter.

It seems like almost every other aspie I bump into online has a desire to people-please, as does one of my diagnosed friends, and the friend who is scoring the same as me in the tests but has to wait for evaluation.

The latter has about 700 Facebook friends, has people drooling all over her and her cosplay outfits, and is always stretched thin paying attention to everybody. She's taking some alone time right now. It's a bit hard as we're sort of courting and C-PTSD gave me abandonment paranoia. People keep leaving links and such on her wall for her to come back to, as if she's some kind of movie star. That doesn't happen to me. Either I'm not pretty or she's so willing to be at the beck and call most of the time that... I don't know. That thought was going somewhere, I swear.

I don't think I want people hounding me every day but I also don't want to be a loner. The agoraphobia doesn't help. Do I have to remake myself from the ground up?

Side note: it feels like I don't fit in as an allistic or an autistic person. It's like neither group has much time for me. Not entirely sure why most of the time.

My tone often comes across incorrectly online; please double-check if you think I have been aggressive or rude and I in turn will try my best to type accurately.

Dear NyxBan,
First, please let me make sure my comprehension of your message. You mean that you behave as if you copy someone or something or their sounds which you experienced before, is that right? And don't you do things in intentional way, do you? Are you feeling as if you are something mimic? If my understanding of your message is correct, I have similar feeling to you. Since I was a child, somehow my action or my intonation of voice often changed like others whom once I met. I use a lot of energy to keep myself from others in human relationship. It is difficult for me to make a sense of identity. I often suspicious of myself. It is really hard. But, I don't want to be a mimic or a copy of someone. I found a solution by myself. I just admit my feature. I think my feature is come from my remembrance. I unconsciously memorize what I seen and heard. These memory became my subconscious. It appears back suddenly in my mind and cause me no willing behaviour. I think you shouldn't try to build up your self from the grounds. You are just what you are. It is all right, I think. However my attitude or behaviour often changes, I have firm mind what I think of others or everything around me. It never change. Thus I can keep myself. There is someone who can understand you if your inner mind is sincere and honest. I hope my message will help you.
Sincerely yours

Is it echolalial scripting?