My son has PDD as I have posted many times. As i have also said many times hes a wonder and come so far. ALso as I have said life was very hard when he was young up till age 14 it was really bad. Also I have posted about his sleep walking,. Which at times is scarey and endless. it seems.
I have not really gone into the past so much. Just a few things here and there. As he was blessed and has so much help and has come so far.
Last night he walked in his sleep and was not so nice. Him being 6 foot plus it can be a issue. It reminded me of when he was young.
How i made sure his life was set up always the same . So he never got to shocked if things changed, Which we all know is next to impossable as life does change.
Im rambleing. With him going off to college its flareing alittle again. Because it means change in his life.
Heres some stuff on PDD will post the link too.
What are Pervasive Developmental Disorders?

The diagnostic category of pervasive developmental disorders (PDD) refers to a group of disorders characterized by delays in the development of socialization and communication skills. Parents may note symptoms as early as infancy, although the typical age of onset is before 3 years of age. Symptoms may include problems with using and understanding language; difficulty relating to people, objects, and events; unusual play with toys and other objects; difficulty with changes in routine or familiar surroundings, and repetitive body movements or behavior patterns. Autism (a developmental brain disorder characterized by impaired social interaction and communication skills, and a limited range of activities and interests) is the most characteristic and best studied PDD. Other types of PDD include Asperger's Syndrome, Childhood Disintegrative Disorder, and Rett's Syndrome. Children with PDD vary widely in abilities, intelligence, and behaviors. Some children do not speak at all, others speak in limited phrases or conversations, and some have relatively normal language development. Repetitive play skills and limited social skills are generally evident. Unusual responses to sensory information, such as loud noises and lights, are also common.
http://www.ninds.nih.gov/disorders/pdd/pdd.htm

Years went by where I had no clue what he was saying. One day it was like his brain connected and the words started. Some I did not want to know. When he learned to say his name ...he must of said it a 100 times in a row.

Hes now 18, you would never know. Unless you lived with him.
One thing that makes me sad is. He has come so far. In his looks. ((he lost 100lbs)) How he handles himself in public. No longer hangs with the kids who cause trouble. Does sports.
Now he is talked about because he improved himself. Looks make no difference in my eyes. They teased him when he was young for being heavy. Now cause they are adults its worse cause he looks good. how sad is that.

I always know when hes worryed about something as he will sleep downstairs. In living room near my room. As he did last night. He of course walked in his sleep. Circle dog as soon as he hears movement near my room . growls and barks. Does not bite thou. Just alerts me.
I could tell right away son was not in a good mood walking in his sleep. So I stay out of his way. Just make sure he gets back to bed.
SAdly once I thought he was awake and laying down. I said good night and I love you to him. Well guess he was not awake as out came a bunch of not nice words.
he rolled over then and was out.
I took circle dog went back to bed. And thought how sad is that.......
Im not sure if I felt sad for me or for him. I think both. Even his thoughts are with him in his dreams.
This morning he did not remember a thing....................

[Junerain]

Yes life does change, fragile lives become less fragile, sometimes the harsh even become more harsh.....change just when we think we understand it, change even changes itself, evolves, into who we are this present moment..

Presently I am looking out at the beach, and as ugly as it appears in my mind, I am regarding my time here as a way to get know myself better, myself, and the folks at PC, who have been with me here, helping me, listening, without judgement, just love

I am sorry your son uttered words that made you uncomfortable, you are such a light to me, when I wake up, I go to the computer, to see what Muffy wrote, who you help, how your present day is.

If anyone of us finds ourselves in a dismal situation, let us not be afraid to open up and write about it here, really share, as we would IRL.

PC IS here with me, having a picnic on the beach, taking what loneliness I feel and not judging or telling me I should not feel that way, but listening, my tears are steady with the tides, probably always will be, yet PC will always be here, that includes you Muffy, helping, listening, having picnics on the beach. The beach seems to go on forever, sometimes it seems life does too, yet we are not immortal, but our writings here at psychcentral will be alive for all to read, a document of our lives.........................

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Muffy))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

My son is only 8 (almost 9) and he is diagnosed with a PDD - either aspergers or "high functioning" autism. There are so many challenges and heartbreaks...the worst for me is watching how he doesn't "fit in" and wondering if he will ever find his place in the world.

Your son is lucky to have you for a mom. You love him so much, and you accept what is, which is really all we can do in the end.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Muffy)))))))))))))))))))))))) Thinking of you and your son!

Thank you for opening the door and letting us have a peek into your daily life with a son having PDD. It was an interesting read. I can tell you're very proud of your son and you should also feel proud of yourself as a mother after sort of "growing" together with your precious son year after year... climbing over all obsticals.

(((((((((( muffy & son ))))))))

Originally Posted by Junerain

Yes life does change, fragile lives become less fragile, sometimes the harsh even become more harsh.....change just when we think we understand it, change even changes itself, evolves, into who we are this present moment..

Presently I am looking out at the beach, and as ugly as it appears in my mind, I am regarding my time here as a way to get know myself better, myself, and the folks at PC, who have been with me here, helping me, listening, without judgement, just love

I am sorry your son uttered words that made you uncomfortable, you are such a light to me, when I wake up, I go to the computer, to see what Muffy wrote, who you help, how your present day is.

If anyone of us finds ourselves in a dismal situation, let us not be afraid to open up and write about it here, really share, as we would IRL.

PC IS here with me, having a picnic on the beach, taking what loneliness I feel and not judging or telling me I should not feel that way, but listening, my tears are steady with the tides, probably always will be, yet PC will always be here, that includes you Muffy, helping, listening, having picnics on the beach. The beach seems to go on forever, sometimes it seems life does too, yet we are not immortal, but our writings here at psychcentral will be alive for all to read, a document of our lives.........................

aww((June))))))))))))))))) You brought tears to my eyes (((ty)))
((ty)) for saying you look forward to what I write. I wake every day to see if all of you are ok.
You are not alone here ((june))) i wish the beach was better for you
you are right our lives our growth our healing will forever be here.
I want you to know you have much light within you and are a kind and caring person.
Your a good person. You matter very much

Originally Posted by earthmama

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Muffy))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

My son is only 8 (almost 9) and he is diagnosed with a PDD - either aspergers or "high functioning" autism. There are so many challenges and heartbreaks...the worst for me is watching how he doesn't "fit in" and wondering if he will ever find his place in the world.

Your son is lucky to have you for a mom. You love him so much, and you accept what is, which is really all we can do in the end.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Muffy)))))))))))))))))))))))) Thinking of you and your son!

aw(earthmama))))))))))))))))))))))Im sorry. I know how hard all of that is. The wondering the worry. I have dealt with that all his life.High functioning is good . Your right the watching of them not fitting in is heart breaking. As I have said before I had so many friends that really forced the fitting in thing early. He did not fit in with the kids. But the adults really made the difference.
Now he does not fit in with the kids around here, because he changed for the better. So hard to explain.
His thinking will always be different. As you know. As he says sometimes when its not a good time for him. He can not get out of his thoughts.
I do want you to know there is hope and lots of it. He went from not talking to talking. To not being socail to being socail. From no sports to being able to do them. Of course not with out hospital visits lol
It went from at a point I could not let him out of my sight,. To being able to be on his own.
I am so blessed. As you know thou somedays can be just plain hard.
The sleep walking thing at times can be funny, Last nights was not.
I pray every day , he will make it in life. He has come so far.
The truth is I have learned so much from him. I can still see him as a baby...what a gift....
Its so hard on them. But boy do they have a inner will like nothing I have ever seen.
((ty)) for saying I am a good Mom. LAst night I wondered if I was. Today I reliaze I have no control over the sleep walking.
I just want him to have peace.
I will keep you and your son in my thoughts. If you need anything let me know. Im 10 years ahead of you on this LOL
Your a good Mom too.I know cause I can tell you feel his pain.
(((((((earthmama))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Originally Posted by daynnight

Thank you for opening the door and letting us have a peek into your daily life with a son having PDD. It was an interesting read. I can tell you're very proud of your son and you should also feel proud of yourself as a mother after sort of "growing" together with your precious son year after year... climbing over all obsticals.

(((((((((( muffy & son ))))))))

((((daynnight)))))))))((ty)))) thank you for sharing you and your son too.
I am so proud of him.
you my dear are a very good mom.