[beadlady29]

so lei ye all no beads isolate hersefl.but sinced we has beened in this dump of a ste of MI we has maked 2 freinds. boht of them not realy very niec ppls. oen of them steals uor beads all teh tiem. teh ohter oen thunkeds her no evrythign moer then teh doctor even. she yell at us all teh teim adn we really hate her. now. but we still gotsa be niec ta her becuz her husbnd is uor bf's bestfreidn. she make us ccry.adn teh first freidn has money to buy her own beads adn she nows we hardly ever get nto byu beads. sowhat is so wriogn wiht beads?? y catn we fidn a real freidn? a freidn what treat us teh way we treat them........beign nice adn wiht respet. r we realy that weird r bad? never beened good enuf far nooen in beads entier lief.............reckon soem thigns never chagne.

[NoCake]

Beadlady you can't blame yourself for the actions of others. Those people were crazy long before you met them. I know it's hard but there are nice people out there. You just keep being your kind self and don't let them knock you down.

[beadlady29]

TY NoCkae........................beads just wish her had a nice fredin just oen IRL is that so mcuh to aks far?? we has never had oen........................................
excappt far teh casewokers adn therpist ppls that GET PAID to be niec to u.......................adn not even all a them was niec..........................sorry it just hurteds..........................beads hurteds really bad rite now catn help how we feels.....................
mary sue

[layla11]

Hi Beadlady, I'm sorry you are hurting, and no its not to much to ask for to have a nice friend. I wish I could come and be your friend, but can be here at the forum, and their are lots of nice people here that would love to be friends. Their are a lot of very sweet people here. Just come here and we will be here.

[beadlady29]

Dear layla 11
thaknu aso nmuhc.............it is realy niec of u to ofer be beads freidn............we sednign u a freidnship request............u seem liek u very niec ppls! hughug
mary sue

[layla11]

That is so sweet! You seem like a very nice person also. Hug Hug to you also.

[beadlady29]

beads s.i. today...............

[eskielover]

Beads......please don't s.i......you are such a wonderful sweet person.....people around you IRL just haven't taken the time to know you & how wonderful you are.....they are the one's missing out on having a wonderful friend like you......don't take it out on yourself for how life is.....I know if feels like we need to at times for the relief of the pain...but it only causes a different kind of pain & doesn't fix anything.........

Wishing we lived close cause I would love to be friends IRL....not just through PC.

I would stay away as much as is possible from those people who treat you badly & not having anything to do with them other than when there is something social you have to do with them. I remember when I was a kid growing up with a girl in my neighborhood who would steal things from my house.....initially was just Easter candy....but that was enough for me to NOT trust her any longer & even as a kid, I would never invite her into my house to play with her. Looking back, it's amazing that I had enough strength to set my boundaries even when I was a kid. We definitely need to be able to set boundaries as much as possible & put your beads far away, locked up in the closet if possible whenever that lady ever comes to your house.

Makes me feel so angry when people treat others horrible like those people are treating you IRL......Sending you love & caring 's.

Don't let those people make you feel that you aren't worthy of being cared about especially to the point of SI'ing to hurt yourself because of it....they aren't worth it.

[beadlady29]

beads must not be wohtr much neohter r esle they wuodl not do thiis to us........

[layla11]

Beads you are worthy, these people are unhappy in their life and try to take it out on others. It is painful but you have friends here who care about you. Its hard for us to understand certain things that people do and you know what we don't need to, just protect yourself from such selfish, hateful people and come here to your Friends beads. hug hug.

[Secretum]

((Beads)) You may not remember, but about a year and a half ago, I was really depressed and I posted a thread about it. You were one of the first people to respond, and your response made me feel so cared for. You reminded me that there is good in the world when I needed it most; I wish that I could do the same for you.

Please take care of yourself. So many people out there are nasty...it's hard to keep reaching out when everyone hurts you. But you are a good, kindhearted person who deserves human companionship, and I'm sure that one day, you'll find it. Just hold on.

Keep posting here. We're listening.

[beadlady29]

Dear Secretum,
if u know beads at all, complete with qautistism, adhd, DID adn brain in jures, u will no that u r right,,,,,,sorry but we have absolutely no recollectoin...ltho ur name is familiar.............
thank u so much far ur kind, sweet post.............beads needed it rite now.............WE really apperceiate u adn ur kind heartfelt words.....beads knows u mean them!
it really does not seem fair that oen person can have so much problems or have had so much bad crap happen to them in one lifetiem but it has adn it is adn rite nwo it is mjist too much to handle withuot no T r anyoen to help r talk to ya know...........................too much &*^% in teh garbage can!
catn taek no moer catn take no moer this crazy weather it makes us hurteds worser on teh uotside adn beads tired of beign cold in her peice of crap 40 yr. old trailer...........................

[eskielover]

I think Beads should move south to a bit warmer location.....we here in KY are cold but nothing like the cold you have to endure throughout the winter. Our cold gets only into the low teens.....never below 0 & the best part of KY are the wonderful people....I never had friends before....but I have found wonderful friends IRL.....which really surprised me. I don't think I could handle the cold & not having a trailer that is winterized because of how old it is.

Most other important is having a T......you shouldn't have to go without one considering all the daily issues you have to be able to handle.....you need a major professional support team....not what you have been stranded with....& without a decent advocate to make sure you get the help you need...... .....my thoughts are with you....with I could be there also.

[beadlady29]

Ha Ha u funny woman...............dont u thunkeds we would moveoutta this state iffen we could afford to?!! We r kind of stuck her beczu of finances well lack of them actually. beads wish we ne ver would of moved hear but we did adn now we cant move back out.........guess thems the breaks a stupidity...............
mary sue

[beadlady29]

We have found a new T we hope............uor first appt. is next thursday on valentien day hope she is nice in person as she was on teh phone adn she take uor inswurence too adn not very fr away.............so YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAay!!!!!!!!!!!!
please say prayer it work out..............ty
mary