Does my family suck? Please help me...

For the last month, I've been attending a private school for my senior year. I hate it. I want to go back to homeschooling like I did last year. Some of my family threatened to cut off contact with me if I left the school I'm at now, saying it makes me a quitter even though I would be continuing my education.

I have no other friends. All I have is a few family members. Obviously I don't want to disappoint my parents even though my mom is okay with me going back to homeschooling. I don't know about my dad... But then my aunts, cousins and even my godmother don't seem to think homeschooling is a valid from of education. They say I need to be around people which is definitely true but if push comes to shove and I never overcome this severe contempt for being surrounded by others, there is always online school and working from home (I have faith in myself that it won't come to that). I try to tell them they shouldn't worry.

I understand that my family cares about me and my future but giving me this ultimatum is making me loathe school even more. I feel pressure to do everything that way they expect or did themselves. But I want a relationship with them. I don't want to be completely alone. The feeling of school makes me feel sick. The feeling of being shunned by my family makes me feel sick. It's like a lose-lose situation.

I've been feeling really miserable lately because I have no idea what to do. I've been trying to push myself to keep going but I WANT TO LEAVE. I cry every morning before school because I regret starting something I should've know I couldn't finish. I thought that since this was my last year, I'd be okay.... I hate myself for being such a p****

I'm sorry this was so long... And I'm sorry if I put this in the wrong forum... I was never diagnosed with AVPD but I thought it kind of fit because I'm trying to avoid school and being around people??......

Is it going too bad in the school? I mean you haven't been so many time there since the course began.
It sometimes takes a time to integrate in a new place, much more for some people who already have problems in this sense.

I can understand your relatives' view but giving someone an ultimatum is not going to work mainly with people who are afraid of doing something.

Talk to your parents openly. Tell them what you feel and I'm sure they will offer an alternative. Perhaps, looking for someone who can help you to face to your fears little by little. The rest of your relatives will understand that you and your parents will do the right thing for you and that it's up to you and your parents to make the decission. They will understand it.

Btw, there is another subforum you can stick your post. If I remember well there is a forum about students and another to ask for advise to parents. I don't remember well. I tell you bc this subforum is not very active and you need some insight here.

Good luck!

Hopeful you find it helpful
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We homeschooled, always offering our kids the option of regular school. Some of them tried it, but all liked homeschooling the best.
I think it would be hard to go to your senior year in any unfamiliar school. Social groups are well formed by then and it's hard to make friends. And surely being with friends is one of the top motives for going to school.
My kids all did fine making the transition to college after home-schooled high school. I think it is quite likely that you will do well next year whether you decide to stick it out or go back to home.
And no, your family doesn't suck. They just want you to do what they think is best for you.